Witches Dwell Here

HELL

2011-05-20T00:25:00.002+08:00

summer 2011. Hell. never been hotter.

since it started walang araw na hindi ako nagising na pawisan. How i wish for an aircon, or to leave somewhere for the summer, probably in the northern hemisphere.

It's almost half of the year, and i haven't made my career move yet. i'm slow i know, but what can i do when there's no opportunity to grab onto.

i just wish summer to pass......

HOLY WEEK

2011-04-23T19:34:00.002+08:00

so. its holy week once more. never been better. sleeping 12 hours. watching survivor on my ipod. practically eating every hour. that's my holy week.

i think i'm agnostic. i believe in extra terrestrial beings. and maybe that's what keeping me so lazy all the time. i have no direction in life.

that sounds so sad. actually tamad lang talaga ako. if i could live this way for th rest of my life without worrying about consequences and responsibilities, i would. oh, i would.

and i'm a capricorn. ironic.

wow. just. wow.

2011-04-20T03:21:00.002+08:00

who would've thought??? this blog is still alive and my memory is still fresh enough that i remember my username and password (heck i used the same things over and over again in all my cyber accounts. huh.)

so one year. one year of no entry. and one year of... so-so life. i'm still in the teaching industry, enlightening Koreans about the usage of english language. good work. good co-workers. good and not-so-good students. BAD employers and even way BAD management. but im still here, after 1 year and maybe 3 months?

life has turned worse for our family last year. mom had colon cancers. all those trips to the hospitals; the check-ups, the major operation and now the chemo sessions, mom's doing okay, and i really hope she does because with cancer you never know.

right now im really in turmoil (as always) in finding a new job. i know i have to move on and find a more stable job with great pay and great benefits compared to my crappy job right now. the ONLY thing i liked about my job is the time. it suits my lazy lifestyle. but that has got to change. so right now im looking forward to a change of scenery. i hope this year would be different

AND i hope this blog of mine will be welcoming more entries in the future.

catch 22

2010-01-16T23:34:00.002+08:00

haha kasi 22 nako. LAME. cooked spaghetti and bought cake and ice cream, staple foods for birthdays. Happy day albeit a normal one. i'm glad to be one year older and one year wiser (really?).

lumipat na kami ng academy, Aillen, Mitch and I, for greedy reasons and still looking for more opportunities. mas trip ko mga students sa current academy ko now, though may isa akong nakaaway (sort of), merong may itsura naman. am i turning into a pedophile or what? (NO!). the kids are simply cute you just to squeeze them to death! and for the bosses i can just damn them to hell.

im running out of things to say, so see you next month.

new chapter? or bad? even worse?

2009-12-16T21:46:00.002+08:00

what negativism. that's me. and i completely forgot to even post one entry in November. because i'm too lazy to type away the happenings. maybe i'll just switch to twitter?

so november 26: i started working. hell yesss. i've been using my english forte... to korean childre. yep. now i'm an english tutor. Bestfriend Angelica was the one who introduced me to this profession (profession, REALLY???). so far, so good. the environment was good, the children were batshit crazy (i'm not kidding), and the workplace is not strict and actually fun.

until my bestfriend got herself fired this afternoon. why? just because she was giving too much free time to her student. a mistake that could easily changed once reprimanded. but she was not given a second chance. at magttagalog na ko dito for the sake of my job. lol. nabatrip talaga ako dun. at dumagdag pa yung stujante kong demanding kala mo naman napakatalino. she doesn't want to agree with me terms, na salitan kami magbbasa, gusto niya 2 pages ako magbbasa tas 1 page lng sya. pinipigilan ko lng talaga sarili kong wag sya patulan, then when i started to read, aba, sabihin ba namang bagalan ko daw. edi nasagot ko sya ng pabalang. nagbasa din sya in the end.

Grammar time, syempre wala naman sa kanila ang genius at maka perfect english structure, so i was pointing out her mistakes na dapat nya i-erase para di ko i-mali yung item. sabi niya wag ko daw sya tulungan. muntik ko na syang layasan sa table namen. edi hinayaan ko sya magsagot, sinabi ko lang na kung gusto na niya ng tulong magsabi sya.

iknow its not as irritating but if you were there shit talaga kahit sino mapipikon. dito ko na ata matututunan ang art of patience. grabe talaga matinding pasenysa ang kelangan ko araw2 kung sya at sya padin ang stujante ko. yung last student ko lng ang nakakapagsalba ng araw ko, what with his crazy antics with his friends.

christmas time and i want and iPod touch sooooooooooooooo bad. as in. walang araw na di lumilipas na di ko sya naiisip. and i have to get another part time job if i want to achieve my goal. let's see what will happen to my fate in 2010.

october.

2009-10-21T00:04:00.003+08:00

this is the month that i liked the least. i don't know. probably because nothing important (at least to me) that i know of is gonna happen. i usually don't notice this month, but man, this year October is quite a little bit noticeable. why?

a. we have no maid. so I BECAME THE "MAID"
b. ivt training.
c. my routine since July is broken. totally.
d. i find myself motivated to find a job. holy...

so there. i've been quite the busybee this past few days, and how i long for the days when i wake up on my own time and do ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. well, everything has to change, and for me i hope i find a job soon. i am quite mad. literally off my rocker. and i miss my series. and i don't want to start rambling so i'll leave. hopefully the next entry won't be like...this.

motivation? wazzat?

2009-09-24T00:40:00.002+08:00

i don't feel like blogging anymore. i don't even like typing in what happens to my life, or rant for the lack of it, cause plainly there's really nothing. sad ain't it? do i sound depressed? its because i'm slowly beginning to be aware of the people around me, how eager they are for me to get started and look for work and DO SOMETHING. but. but. i'm slow. i'm not lazy, i'm just slow. they think im idling, which is probably true, but i'm still taking my time. and maybe they aren't saying much, but i know, specially my mom, the looks she's been giving me. i don't want to work. yet. and i dont wanna hurry myself just because of them, of their expectation. i'll move in my own pace. okay.

okay. now, i had LONG weekend. spent the whole week in my mom's hometown, cause my grandma died. they said she had stroke first then choked on the palitaw she's eating, and then maybe it could be that she choked first then suffered a stroke because of it. either way, she didn't make it when they brought her to the nearest clinic, she's dead on arrival. my dad and i accompanied my mom for the whole week. my bro and sis followed in the weekend. it was a complicated week. mostly it was boring, what else can you expect in a remote province? it was also a bit entertaining because of my neices, and it was breath of fresh air, a change of scenery. aunts and uncles from the states came home so it was sort of a reunion.

argh. im tired of typing. my hands couldn't keep up with the flow of my thoughts. i guess i'll just leave it here as it is.

time for an entry!

2009-08-13T01:44:00.003+08:00

yay, its august, time for my once-a-month entry! sheesh...haha

went to PRC today with Ada, and i never want to go back there again. its not that i have a choice in that matter, right? i'll be practicing my profession (ows?) and in order to do that of course PRC and PNA will never be gone from my side.

i dont want to dwell on my misery of choosing my life's career, so what else is there to say? im breaking out, i can't seem to loose the pounds i gained being a freshly new TAMBAY, haven't got my period (august is still not over, so don't lose hope mitch!) and i haven't pooped in 2 days. major turn off for you reader.

thats because i did nothing but eat the chocolate brownie my mom and sis made last week. ganun sya kasarap, kaya hindi nako makatae.haha!

okay enough of this, im revealing my ugly(and natural) side to you.

i've noticed that i've been having THE SAME problems since waaayy back i don't know, so im just gonna end this rambling here.

see you in september.

happy day?

2009-07-28T23:14:00.002+08:00

i would like to say that i was busy since my last entry that i haven't got the time to update, but no, that's not entirely the truth.

call centers hate nursing graduates. they accept your resume, lets you take the exam (which i PASSED), and then in the interview they'll tell you that they're not hiring nursing graduates. goodness, they should have posted a sign outside their office saying NOT HIRING NURSING GRADUATES and then saved our energy in going there.

another thing, i passed the Nursing Licensure Exams. and i was the last person to know this. funny, huh? i told myself that na magyayabang talaga ako pag nakapasa pako, cause, hey, i didn't enroll in a review center! (shite, now the big secret's out), i barely studied in the two months we were given to prepare, and yet sumabit pako. nagyon naniniwala nako na wala talaga sa review center yan kung papasa ka.

the thing is, i still don't know what to do in life. a good friend of mine is leaving tomorrow for dubai, she failed the NLE but still she could have plenty of opportunities once she leave our country. and she's offering to help us get there. there's still a lot of things i should think about and i should decided soon. grrr..

going to be busy for our oath taking in august, and after that..well, its either good bye lazy days, or hello to being a professional bum. a big sigh there.

been a while, huh?

2009-07-09T20:29:00.003+08:00

and thats because i've got nothing earth-shattering to say. just me lazing around the house every.single.day. until god decided to give me some motivation today to try and apply in a call center. my friend convinced me to join her and there we were, newbies and all. and then to my surprise i passed. wow, i didn't expect that cause i did the tests half-heartedly, but it made my confidence boost a little.Ü

sad thing was, my friend, who was the one who suggested we do the whole thing in the first place, failed. aaww. but she was told to come back after two weeks while i was scheduled for a final interview tomorrow. i re-scheduled it for monday because we are going to try out another company where another friend would be joining us. this time i hope we all get in cause i'll tear my hair out if one us couldn't make it (given that we had experienced applying and our friend is our batch's freakin' cum laude.)

that's it. got nothing more to say.

am i truly emancipated?

2009-06-12T00:07:00.002+08:00

a big NO. so much has happened that i haven't found the time to update my blog despite me using the pc almost every night. oh well, i guess i always forgot.

the rest of the summer was spent outside. studying. and its quite hard to study outside the comforts of your own home. mccafe and starbucks became my review centers. pero syempre ayus lang sakin yun kasi may pera ako. and then i committed probably the last 'kalokohan' of my life. and i'll not regret it, that, i know.

then came the board exams. boy it was so draining, that 2-day examination. i was never anxious the while time at nung natapos na, i was sick worried about the results. and my family wants me to take the cgfns and ielts soon. do they think im a genius or what?

and now im a bum. BUM. lazyass. and loving every minute of it. harhar.

what comes next in my now adult life? (adult. gah.)

so long, goodbye

2009-04-10T20:36:00.003+08:00

again its lame, the title, but it pertains to my impending graduation on thursday. YES. GRADUATION. and i have tons of problems to deal with before i can feel like its worthy to walk up the stage and receive your diploma. im not melodramatic, sure i'll miss the school and all the things i've experienced and learned there, but im not looking forward to cut my ties to that school yet. dang it, now i have to look for a job and earn my own money and isnt that cool but im kinda not ready to be THAT responsible yet. and working as a nurse with LOW salary? man, its a tough decision on what to do with my life now that im done with school.

and another thing, this board exams, im not going to go into details but im already self reviewing in case makaabot ako sa june board. and im not confident that i would pass. a BIG frustrated sigh there. plus im getting fat and i havent got my period in two and a half months(IM NOT PREGNANT OKAY) its all stressing me out i just want to go to a beach and scream my lungs out (a friend suggested it not once before).

so there. i've been quite risky these past weeks, going out with friends when there's this saying that malapit sa disgrasya ang mga graduating students. the hell. i have no pitcure to post yet because my friend's pc broke down and couldnt upload all the evidence of the fun we had. thats the biggest thing im gonna miss.

matagal na naman ako bago makapg post uli so you and i will never know what will happen next im my measly life.

a thorn on my side gone

2009-03-10T20:16:00.002+08:00

wrong grammar ata ang title ko. haha. nevermind. if you can understand the thought, talagang natanggalan ako ng tinik, literally, syempre. all those worrying over my minor subjects that may hinder my marching in april, well, i just passed. hah. im darn proud of it. busy as bee kami ngayon, fussing over requirements, thinking about review centers, and of course there's the chilling thought: are going to graduate? of course I am, though walang kasabihan kung mkkpasa ako sa board, im just going to have to find out.

right now sabik na sabik ako sa internet dahil nagcrash si karen and im now getting friendly with natalie (bro's PERSONAL personal pc)at sana hindi sya masira. so im gonna keep this entry short and go my way. ciaossu.

back to hellhole

2009-01-26T17:23:00.003+08:00

haha, i mean back to the hell that's manila. its been a week since me and the gang went to baguio, it was like heaven. been to almost all of the tourist spots in one day. the whole place was like centralized aircon. and i terribly missed it. nanibago ako lalo na sa community, its ;literally hot like hell, nararamdaman ko na ang tindi ng init this coming summer, and it means one thing: BEACH!!!!!!!!!

speaking, i need to prepare my body for it, in the course of 4 years in my college life i gained 10 freakin pounds. very, very good of me. i need to get rid of the sins i ate and go back to my original weight.

anyway kanina pala i went to rfc, to my every loyal ate hana to buy new dvds, and when i was browsing through, biglang nagka raid! darn it, and i badly need to watch season two and three of Bones. there goes my day. blah.

really UNlucky oh-nine!

2009-01-12T23:53:00.002+08:00

masama nga naman ang maging pessimist. sa january 1 entry ko unlucky na agad ako...so ibig sabihin ba tuluy tuloy na ang malas sa buong taon?? (naknang!!!! kkasabi ko lng na masama ang maging pessimist!)

so nung sabado (kalimutan ko na date), habang papasok ako sa community, at nasa bandang moonwalk nako, na-snatch ang phone ko. syempre dala na yun ng katangahan, akalain ko ba naman-for a millisecond (meron ba nun)- na kakilala ko yung humablot ng phone. tas ska ko na narealize na snatcher pala yun nung nakuha na sa kamay ko yung phone..tanga diba? hahaha... wala pa akong experience na ma snatch-an so di tlga yun ang unang pumasok sa isip ko...

anyway, sa ibang aspeto naman ng buhay ko...ayus lang, so far. addict ako sa espresso, nakikinig padin sa musikang di ko maintindihan, yung art app at nstp kasundo ko na (sana magtuluy-tuloy)... at sana maka graduate ako... pictorial namen kanina para sa yearbook, at 50/50 ang lagay kung ayos ang labas ng mga kuha ko. kasi ang taba ko na amp!!!

yung baguio na hindi masingit-singit eh sana maisingit na... gusto ko ng unwind sa lecheng community na pinapataba ako lalo!!! bakit kasi pag community dun talaga ako nataba...argghh..

lapit na birthday ko, so pa birthday ko na lng sa snatcher yung phone ko... pareho kami ni ada, dahil sa kinahapunan ng araw din na yun eh nanakawan din sya ng phone sa town. galing talaga ng buhay.

unlucky '09

2009-01-01T21:14:00.002+08:00

syempre sino ba naman ang gustong malasin ngayong bagong taon?? wala diba? lalo nako, who had a handful of misfortumes thrown at me this 2008. memorable sya lahat actually, haha. and i can say i did learn from it. ayoko ko nang mag munimuni sa mga nangyrai sakin nitong 2008, nkkatamad. basta msaya na miserable ang 2008 ko.

last dec. 30, naka chillax namen sa starbucks ni jec si RJ. funny nga eh, but we ended uo going home late than we planned to because we had so much fun with RJ. sya lng yung pinaka close namen na tropa ni kuya. so ayun.

welcoming the new year, was always the same with me and my family. we were together watching the fireworks and shouting till our throats hurt. and movie trip.

the next morning, we went t our titas house, change venue naman dahil sila na lng lagi pumupunta samen after new year, so kame naman nagpakahirap pumuntang new manila. lapit lng naman. haha. napagod ako sa kakatawa. we were watching various hilarious (rhyme!Ü) clips in youtube. at ate, ate, ate.

so now im here with another cold. i swear puro sipon at sakit n lng tinamasa ko sa pagttapos ng 2008. ampness. haha. mamamatay na ata ako.

the best and worst christmas?

2008-12-27T15:32:00.002+08:00

a big, tired sigh. i don't know what to say, but i will summarize this in one short entry.

Christmas in la union. Fun. reunion with family. KC's 7th birthday, december 20. I was entertained by my cute neices.then celebrated noche buena at our uncle's house, he hosted a party, with dancers/performers and all. it was a typical province party, i was used to it since i've been vacationing there every summer of my childhood. then the christmas day. all food, food, food. never got the time to feel hungry. what made this the most fun christmas was i received a LOT of stuff, and money. and no amount of joy can compare to family being together for christmas. sayang lang we're not entirely complete.

the major sucker---i got sick. sa la union p lang, i tried to drink slimming tea, and then the next morning after i voided my tummy ached and then i had a low fever. then pag uwi dito sa manila diarrhea was full bloom, it was miserable.Ü but then all thanks to imodium and bananas, i was all well again. but now medyo inaa assess ko pa sarili ko, my head hurts and my stiff neck still bothers me. darn. oh well.

i wonder how 2009 will be for me, i still problems, darn it! but still, im loaded.hah.

what a daaayyy

2008-12-17T00:13:00.004+08:00

prang ang tagal na panahon na ng mapagod ako, and spent the rest of the day OUTside the house. harhar. so im super lazy to go out, blame me and all.

went to 2 schools para sa assignment ba yun sa lec. then to baclaran(with jhing,rea, ken, nica and her bro). OH MY GEEZ that was a bit of traumatic experience. haha. reminded me why i hate those kinds of places. di bale ng sa mall sa mag shopping, di naman nawindang ang utak mo sa inet, sikip and xempre sa paghanap ng good buy.

went to Japan salon for a haircut. i wanted something shorter but si kuya slight lng ang ginupit (baka magtampo si hair?) but i was satisfied at the end, pay's worth it. si jhing, lalaki na! haha!

then went to town to buy havz. im a bit choosy kasi so mejo natagalan (eh wala naman masyadong mapagpilian), so i settled for the one i really liked best.

and whats the best part of this day(besides being wasted), was that i still have a LOT of money left! hurray!Ü

last ward duty

2008-11-30T19:49:00.004+08:00

yes, last rotation sa ward, but not technically last duty, dahil nursing week(days) next week, hindi sure kung may duty sa friday. yay!

the three-day duty was a bit toxic, kami na ang pinaghandle ng ward and im sooo lucky na hndi ako naging leader, or was assigned a specific task nung nag functional kami... c.i. who shared a name with me, and i had first patient ever to sincerely thank me for a good service i've done for him. ngayon ko lang na-realize how fulfilling my future career can be, that a simple gesture can mean so much to a person. natuwa naman ako sa patient ko when he came to me nung pauwi na sya ang thanked me for the good service, pati yung relatives nya pinasalamatan din ako. he even told me to write to him pagka graduate ko dahil tututlungan daw nya ako. can we say,'aaaww!'. lol. well it made me realize things, and its a good feeling to serve other people. nakz..taena.

best sembreak

2008-11-14T17:53:00.002+08:00

okay i know this is a bad time for me to write this, though i've been meaning to post an entry for the entirety of my 3-week vacation.

best sembreak. yeah. best. definitely. i was out of the house everyday for the first week, and the remaining week i never had the sunshine hit my skin. ok that was a bit exaggerated, but that's that. i was officially a bum, and couch potato for the rest of the week. well, count the times when i went to starbucks just to chill.

one more sem and im outta school. hello adult world. and right now im having problems, w/c i could just deal with by sleeping (i don't know how to do that anymore) and then maybe i can think straight. its not that im running from this problem, i just dont wanna stress myself over it. after my much coveted sleep i'll be back in my devil-may-care persona, and all's well in the world. blah

it turned out to be so much fun after all

2008-10-12T15:19:00.003+08:00

kahit sabihin ng hindi ako naging ganun ka cooperative sa practices at talagang deep inside eh talagang inis na inis na kaming lahat sa subject ang prof namen, in the end nag paid off naman ang pinaghirapan(oh? hehe oo tama)

maganda naman yung hydrolix kahit mainet, haha, at least lumamig lamig xa after nung program... some were not a bit happy at 'intruders' and the party kinda started after that. it was fun..so many pix, so many booze and little food. but its alright, pra wala masyado masuka, in my case. hehe.. got home at around four am na ata..and all of it was a good memory after all.

too tired for anything..

2008-10-09T18:43:00.002+08:00

...so chill naman! new word yan galing kay baboy anne. haha! since last week pako halos walang pahinga, well, puro pahinga na nga eh, so the word "chill", pero kkpagod padin ang mag chill ha, lalo n kung laging naghaharutan, at ang kaharutan mo pa ang isang baboy. haha..

ok so last sat last day of duty sa napaka-petix na napag duty-han ko. ever. as in petix ka dun, literally. 7pm sa uwian na dapat 10pm, breaktime ng mga 4 pm na basta hindi llagpas ng 8 pm..at CI sobrang bait...so ayun, the elya met up with CON sa rob imus..hindi naman natuloy ang planong manood ng movie, kumain lng at tumambay sa coffee talk...mejo may nagkapikunan haha na na solve naman agad.

monday unit test kay trimocha. i was glad to see the last of her (yabang yun pla bumagsak haha), and again bumawi si anne. ada, jhing, her and I went to sm to watch Mirror. sakto lng yung movie, nothing to rave about it. dropped jhing sa southland then nag 'chill' sa mccafe. ngayong ko lng nakita ang recently renovated place nayun, and ok sya. tambayan sya ng bagong mga tropa ni anne...

tuesday nagpasuk-pasukan kami at tumambay uli sa rob imus. nagplastikan sa coffee talk, naglaro ng PS, at sumakay ng caterpillar at ferris wheel sa perya. haha. at nagpiktyur plg ng nagpiktyur.

AYOKONG UMATEND NG PRAKTIS! PERO KELANGAN, DAMMIT.....makapasa lng lecheng art appreciation na yan..my god...

breathe easy

2008-09-19T10:21:00.003+08:00

its not as if talagang nag panic at nag cram ako for revalida. it only took me 2 days to study (almost) all of the 56 diseases and 37 skills only to pick one topic for each and perform it. hell, aint it? i didn't even prayed the night before, but hey, guess what, out five questions in the concepts, i got 4 right, the one mistake, multiple choice, binigyan pako ng choices ng panelist. medyo masaklap, pero sinwerte na din ako at ako ang nahuling pumasok an naupo sa unang upuan, dahil lhat ng groupmates ko ayaw dun. i got the easiest (i mean, really the EASIEST) questions. at yung topic pa na nabunot namen ay isa sa hindi ko napagaralan. can we say, lucky me?

sa skills, medyo tagilid siguro. i forgot a few things lng but those few things are the vital once in performing that said skills. i was asked to perform perineal care, at kalimutan ba namang lagyan ng bed pan and kama??edi basa n ang bedsheets pag buhos p lng ng water. see? haha really stupid of me to forget that one thing.now i can really breathe easy dahil lecture exams n lng aalalahanin.

went to town with barney and jes to help bro look for a polo for a wedding. it was fun, hung out at starbucks and talk about our lives. haha. the days of our lives, kung baga. i guess we're really maturing and i'm glad we're still closer as ever. go us!

harhar ok so bangag nako. my eyes are giving out on me. aga pa pasok ko tom, and i dnt know kung unit exam na. i didn't even lift a page on my notes to study. damn. guess i have to rely on my lucky stars again for this.

iwa's crib

2008-09-19T10:21:00.002+08:00

okay, so for a change, positive naman ang entry ko. after ng ICU, ward naman kami, and guess where? dun dun duunnn...MCI! yeah, so hindi naman exciting, one time ko lng nasulyapan ang crush ko, but saw more of the other hotties of ER. haha. ok naman sa ward, mabait CI, ok yung mga patients, so far so good, kahapon wala akong patient kasi umuwi ng maaga yung 5 year-old japanese patient ko (haha tlagang may ganun, may connection?). and for the past 2 days hindi ako natutulog sa bahay hence the title. haha. iwa's crib, as in yung pangatlong basa! pero kapitbahay din niya yung totoong iwa (not that she's really important in this entry, no). foodtrip, movietrip, alak trip, in short, buhay palamuning baboy kami dun (pinaka prime example si anne syempre). umaga nako nauwi, at syempre, deretso duty nang bangag.

ayun lng muna for now. antabay lng sa mga susunod na kamalasan. im sure may kasunod na malas pagtapos ng swerte. syempre, napili kasi ang canvas ko sa isa sa mga ie-exhibit. napaka major kasi ng arts app.

imma burn that hospital down!

2008-08-28T16:46:00.003+08:00

para medyo sosyal naman, kahit gusto nang mamutawi ng makukulay na mura ang bibig ko. i was taught better than that. well, at least hindi lang ako ang gustong pasabugin ang ospital na yun at isumpa ang mga ci at staff dun, halos lahat ata kaming nag orient dun kanina. hay. hassle. yun lng ang masasabi ko. KAYO NA ANG PINAKAMAGALING SA LAHAT. kung maka-asta. nauna lng kayong pinanganak. ayheytchu ol! bow... (pampalubag-loob, kung ano man to)

time to unwind!

2008-08-25T03:35:00.003+08:00

yeah, the title suck big time, but hey, it's almost 4 in the morning already, i have to post this before i go to bed. hah.

so this week we had our basic life support seminar. it was fun and very educating, those three days were so worth it. our section was with section E, so meaning, elya reunites again! social smoking after school, food trips, and then time to unwind after the third and last day of the seminar. watched Big Stan with anne, ada and jhing. the movie was hilarious, but not really THAT hilarious as you would expect of rob schneider...hung out at ministop, bought beer at tumambay ng parang tambay sa tabi ng tindahan ng yosi at candy. haha. in short we looked like dorks. but not really. it was a first experience and it was sort of cool. anyway stopped by foodshop for a while and then went our separate ways home. next week: EXAM WEEK. dun dun duuunnnnn prepare for massive studying (hah i wish) and hope to the highest gods that i pass this midterms. but finishing breaking dawn is still on my top list. yep. bought that book on impulse, but i was dying to read it anyway. hayz, okay i'm off.

impyerno sa san pedro

2008-08-15T15:53:00.002+08:00

okay, so its a lame title, but my brain's practically mush right now and i don't have the capacity to think hard enough...

so its not the place, really, san pedro doctor's hospital is a nice hospital, with accomodating staff and comfortable area. yet again, its the clinical intructor. a friend and i (yes prend, you!Ü) have been having this thought that this chains of 'cursed' events started way back in parong, and now it won't leave us. kung hindi si prend ang minamalas, then kami naman. hay. today, especially, is a grueling duty. i made a very, VERY stupid mistake (my very first) in giving medication to my patient. the mistake wasn't in the medication mismo, but how i gave it. its a stupid mistake, not a big or life-threatening one, but a mistake nonetheless. at hindi tulad ng first demonic ci namen ni binubulungan lng kami sa tenga like a she-devil sprouting devil words in our ear, this ci broadcasted it. yung typical na namamahiya. but i stood my ground and feigned indifference. keber ko sa kanya. i wasn't that much affected at all. but still its a matter of pride. i made mistakes as a human being, but not really 'stupid' mistakes. i just want this rotation to be over. kung ano yung ikinaswerte namen sa last rotation (perpz OR with complete major casesÜ) heto naman at sinampal kami sa mukha ng malas.

ER heaven

2008-07-27T06:46:00.002+08:00

in my little experience in duty exposure, i could say na ngayon lang talaga ako nag enjoy sa duty ko. the groupmates, the clinical instructor, the area, and last but not the least, the STAFF. yes, the staff of MCI ER station that composes of young, hot male nurses! i'm not kidding, sa tatlong araw na nag duty kami dun busog ang mga mata namen. haha. not to mention our instructor who's nuttier than nuts. haha. he's so funny and entertaining, maluwag pa, and we will definitely miss him. oh, and of course, my crush. haha! nakakahiya p nga dahil kanina napagtulungan ako, former student kasi sya ng c.i ko, ayun, pinakilala saken, (although naipakilala na talaga sya with the other staff on our first duty). next thing i know, hinahanap nako ng mga doctors dun, tinawag pa ko para lang i-assist si crush. hindi lng naman ako ang may crush dun, kaming lahat. haha! pero i was the first who took a claim on him(syempre samin2 lang yun). so there. OR perpetual next! i wonder what kind of experience awaits me there, dahil zero experience pako dun. oh, well. gotta go, my eyes are begging for me to shut them off.

everyday birthday

2008-07-20T22:33:00.002+08:00

how i wish..haha..celebrated meg's bday for 2 days...i wasn't around when they went to foodshop last friday, but i was fortunately able to make it on saturday at central bf. Meg, naths, ann, jessa, andrew and I were present. almost got too intoxicated, but i found my secret weapon in staying sober-yosi. haha. thats right. mas madali pa kong mahilo agad pag ordinary yosi break, but with alcohol, i can take as much as you do! haha! after that meg took off to meet with wey-even after all the things we told her, and now nathz and I decided to just let her be. we've wasted enough time and energy telling her to do otherwise. she's on her own, always have been.

the next day, her birth day (today, actually), we went to town, chilled at seattle's best, window shopped, then went back to her house to celebrate her birthday with a simple dinner-party. over-all it was alright, the three of us bonded longer than we used to, which was nice, but, underneath it all, i things thinks are still quite...unbalanced? i don't, but as long our bond's still tight, i've got nothing to worry about. Happy Birthday Meg!Ü

time for a serious, formal entry?

2008-07-09T00:03:00.002+08:00

no sir, i don't think so. spent so many hours looking for a good blog layout, and in the end i ended up keeping my last one. SO stupid. but the layout works for me, i don't know. so as i was fixing my blog, i re-read my past entries, and man, i want to laugh and cringe and the same time. i couldn't believe i wrote those things! and reading my 'hate' entries again takes me back, feeling the things i felt that time. man that was tough, and that's the purpose of the blog, right? but do i really have to reminisce and re-live that? i guess im really a sentimental person.duh.

back to the present, its been 5weeks already since class started, and im still a mess. i mean, seriously, i've been cutting classes in campus almost everyday, i have no desire attending it at all. its ironic because the more graduation's closing in, the more my laziness is getting worse. i let it take over me, and im powerless to stop it sometimes. i always in the back of my mind that consequences are just right around the corner, but i still heed it. what a real MESS, right? i think im nearly experiencing anhedonie(having no pleasure at anything at all), but i think im just scaring myself. of course there's stil a lot of things that brings pleasure to me, school environment just don't appeal to me anymore. or if im more honest to myself, ithe company i'm in.

but im still a sane person, i still try to distract myself and focus on the things that'll cheer me up, and im doing fine. maybe i'm in the phase of getting into real adulthood. i mean after i graduate im pretty much on my own, right? when im still in highschool i was so excited in leaving and entering college, and now im worried about leaving it. its scary world out there, right? and im much too scared to be practicing my career. ah, hell, i'll just be a ship or airplane nurse!

okay, so im back to ranting. i just to post a decent entry. (decent, huh?)

elya reunites again

2008-06-30T20:12:00.002+08:00

haha okay, so after 3weeks (since the start of classes) of getting only brief glances of anne( i know, parang artista ang drama ng bruha, mailap pa sa bulalakaw), we finally got together last sunday, after the seminar (kung saan patapos na ng makarating ako). original cast ng elya ang lumabas: con, dom, vibe, rator. went to southmall then town to watch Wanted. Awesome movie, may i add. Yhen bought contact lenses and knowing us, in the spur of the moment, we wanted our own contacts too. so viola! just cleaned my first ever contact lens. na miss ko din ang ungas na anne na yon. haha. that's one of the friendships i've built that i'll definitely be motivated to keep. with her life's just full of fun, laughter and adventure. and that's my kind of fun. friendship for me is sharing life's wonderful things, not the burdens of it. it was like that for me for a long time, and now i just want to have fun while i still grace the earth. (mejo deep yun ah. haha)

social drinking

2008-06-29T01:00:00.001+08:00

its been a while since my last 'social drinking' and definitely 'social smoking'. haha. elya's there, without con, ej, christer, cab and new classmates jam and zhar. it was nice, tried to control myself form being intoxicated, and i made it home in one piece. nice. Ü and at last goodbye mental hospital, hello, 2-10 shift ward! ugh.

first two weeks of class

2008-06-21T22:35:00.002+08:00

forgot to update again my first day(s) of class of my last year. either im scatterbrained, lazy or just too busy to do it. the latter is quite impossible.

so i missed a few class in the first two weeks. bumubwelo pako eh di pa ready katawan kong pumasok. tsaka im not yet adjusted na wala na yung mga talagang kasama ko (anne, kishy...) but im glad tiffany's with me or baka sumablay ako at di makagraduate. unfortunately kulang na ang elya, i have to see what works out in the coming weeks to come.

first rotation, cavite center medical hospital- in short - MENTAL. kala ko hell and simula ng buhay senior college ko. ok naman pala sa mental, kakatuwa. i wont elaborate much on this (yeah, i know, wala na yung dati kong gana na tipo kaliit liitan detalye pinagttyagaan kong isulat), i know you know that dealing with psychiatric patients in real life is both frightening ang thrilling, and im lucky that i got the best patient. pagaling na xa, halos wala nang sapak. but man, the others. haha. i just have to laugh at the memories.

at usual pagod na naman ako, and i dnt want to feel this way ever again. and im having my ultimate problem-fitting in. i dnt know, can someone tell me if i look ill when im around new people, cause i never notice. or its just that im not really the type of person who befriends EVERYONE in the span on 2weeks. so not me.

moving on, ive got upcoming plans with anne and the rest, to watch altered on the same day i plan my date. with my sister. (such a loser, i know, but what the hell)to watch my sassy girl and chill at starbucks after. i dnt know what to do. speaking of starbucks, last week naths and i bonded, and i had a wonderful time with her except in the end, feeling nauseous again after not smoking for a long ime ( i REALLY have to get used to smoking. one stick still makes me feel i've drunk three bottles of empi. whatev.)

got nothing more to say i guess.

last get-together with cousin may

2008-06-06T11:55:00.002+08:00

yesterday my cousin may, my sis and i went to town for our lat get-together, for she will be leaving on monday for saudi. we watched narnia, and i couldnt help but remember all the times we spent together watching movies. haha. she's undoubtly my closest cousin, having been with us for what, roughly 7-8 years? and now she's leaving to work in saudi, i dnt know when she'll come back. im glad her career's moving, i wish mine was like as well in the near future. hehe, well, im gonna miss her and her crazy antics.Ü

mom's day

2008-05-11T21:17:00.002+08:00

greeted my mom the moment i woke up this morning. went to the mall to bond, watched movie, went to mass, and ate at a restaurant. over-all, i love my mom and this day is for her. luvyah ma!Ü

one day to go!

2008-05-06T17:14:00.002+08:00

yes! abot tenga na ang mga ngiti namen dahil isang araw na lang at tapos na ang karumal dumal na duty namen sa ER ng metro south. at take notw 6 hours lang, dahil mat staff meeting ang mga ci..yahoo!!!

however, this particular duty, may namatay sa shift name. i know this is not new, araw2 may namamatay, pero yung ma assign ka sa ER, nkatengga kayo lahat tas biglang may isusgod na doa na pala, its kinda shocking. the woman was eight months pregnant, and the fetus died along with her. nadulas daw yung babae, ang it took a while for th relatives to rush her to the hospital. the staff tried to revive, pero wala na talaga, iba na yung kulay, and they couldn't even put the laryngoscope inside dahil matigas na daw yung panga. naawa naman ako sa mga relatives, and to the husband, who's working abroad. naisip ko tuloy yung motto na: live every day as if its your last. mali ata yung magkaksulat ko but the hell, ganun na din yun. you never know n sa pagpasok m lang sa banyo, hindi ka na lalabas pa ulit ng buhay.

before i forgot pala, last saturday, an old high school friend and i bonded. i missed her and im glad that she didn't change. she's still the same weird, eccentric girl that i befriended and knew since gradeschool.Ü

i think that's all for now. i'm still lost in the state of euphoria.this is our last week and summer classes are finally over. my LAST summer class.huh.

from intramuros to tagaytay

2008-04-26T20:31:00.002+08:00

for some reason tinatamad akong mag exaggerate ng post. haha. just kidding, not entirely exaggerate, but to beautify my entry.

well, we went to intramuros for our rizal subject. anne, bethle, leeyen, jhing and i went together..took some pictures then headed to tagaytay. its a change of weather and scenery for a while. ate at mushroom burger. we indulged jhing's request to chill for a while (i forgot what that place was called, but it's for horse rental and bikes...)and then they indulged my request and went at people's park. then we visited the pink sister..(pakabait muna for a while), then went home. simple as that.ÜÜ

what a wasted day

2008-04-22T18:32:00.002+08:00

of course, walang awa padin ang perpetual at pinag duty padin kami. morning pa lang when i woke up i wasn't feeling well, na parang ang bigat ng pakiramdam ko. i feel like a flu was coming, like my tummy's rumbling (not hunger), and the fact that i woke up without my tongue ring. yeah, i swallowed the cap of my ring. wala namang tatalo sa una kong nalunok, yung stem mismo. hanep talaga.

i was feeling down for the first half of the morning, but the elyas where there to spice things up (as usual), and then im back on track. kaya lang this was a hectic day! si mam umagang umaga di na maipinta ang mukha, i feel for mark nga kasi sobrang busy din niya, nasisigawan na xa ni mam,(actually lahat kami na hotseat sa kanya this day)

and then na incident report pa sila ng isa kon classmate dahil hindi lang agad na itapon yung syringe. it sounds unreasonable, but its a little more complicated than that. at dahil dun lumabas na totoo niyang kulay. haha. ako na ang nahiya sa kanya sa pagkawala ng temper at huwisyo niya. now that was unreasonable and almost unprofessional.

at the end of the day, i went home super tired, pero heto padin at nasa net. sa pilahan ng tricyle kanina there was a lady who was nauseous, nasa loob na xa ng tricycle, and when i asked the driver sabi nga niya nahihilo. i automatically said na dalhin na sa hospital and then i went on my way, i was so eager to get home and get the damn uniform off dahil di na ko makahinga sa sikip. thinking back then, as student nurse i could have don something. pero wala naman ako yung inaamoy pra mawala yung hilo. and i could've accompanied the lady to the er. but i think that was quite far-fetched? hmn..i gotta practice my future profession as early as now. (got shivers. Ü)

i got dirty, i got stinky....

2008-04-16T18:56:00.002+08:00

But i learned??? i don't know! (accurate ba yung title ko sa commercial? haha whatev.)

second rotation n namen this summer, and its in the ward, ugh, i hate wards. i hate charting. i hate wearing white uniform. i hate IVs!!!! hindi naman ganun ka-obvious diba? i'd rather be in DR.

so this particular rotation is the most tiring of all.(almost all of entries were composed of tiring events)not because we were being intoxicated by our C.I, but because of anne and weh's boisterousness. as in to the highest level ang pagkaharot nila that it uses up all of my energy. eh, 6am-6pm kami. at hindi pa matigil bunganga ni anne sa paglamon. at its so hot and humid na hindi pa tapos ang araw nanlalagkit na kame. howi wish it would end sooner.

and i had a horrible encounter today with my patient for the first time. the patient's daughter complained to a staff nurse na ginigising ko daw yung dad niya for vital signs.and that my attitude towards the suwero (IV) thing made me look like i wa s looking down on them, which was absolutely wrong. na para daw pinagtatawanan ko sila (or kame ni anne, dahil kasama ko sya nung nagkabit ako ng bagong IV). the staff went to my ci, and then she talked to me. inexplain ko naman yng side ko, then she went to my patient to sort things out. the outcome the event was a lesson for me. i know that there are some patients(or relatives of the patients) who are very hard to deal with, konting galaw mo lang pwede na silang magreklamo. i should be careful in dealing with patients and their relatives lalp sa charity ward cause they're very sensitive. and side ko naman, i was concerned na huwag gisingin yung patient dahil alam kong hirap xa makatulog, but i said na kukunan ko n lang para ma-close na yung chart. i was wrong in that part. the relative was present when i took the vital signs pero hindi valid reason yung para lng ma close yung chart. and about the IV thing, i was just making sure hindi maubusan ng swero yung patient, i hated dealing with patients with IV so talagang binabantayan ko na huwag akong maubusan. maybe they misunderstood my actions at inakala nilang minamadali ko sila o pinipilit kong bumili ng swero. they even said at one point na parang nagulat pa daw kami nung sabihin nilang kaya natagalan dahil sa cashier. super react daw kami at inulit pa ung word na cashier. (exagge!) eh ni wala nga akong sinabing ganun. i dnt even remember talking to them while we were changing the IV bottles. it was disheartening but hey, what the hell, i wa sjust trying to do my job. sila lang yung mga insensitive. (sabay ganun!)

anyway, exams are next week then may 2 days pa to spare sa hell ward na yun. katakut takot na harutan at lagkitan na naman. and to mention, MISS RABBIT is slowly coming out of the closet! this will be exciting to see. too many evidences to prove, i couldn't count them. from the way she closes himself sa mga boys,fascination of bags, to the color pink, sa pagtatahi! so much more (PREND, if you're reading this, you definitely know rigth!? Ü)

im SO TIRED! just got home to post this, and now im off to the shower!

summer bummer?

2008-04-10T12:44:00.002+08:00

think this summer is the same as all the other summer i've experienced so far? quite wrong. this is probably the most adventurous summer i've come to experience in my 20 years of life. sad eh?

well first was the pagudpud experience. nothing can compare to that as of yet. then just last week, while my iranian cousins were visiting us, my friend called me and my other friend to help her. it was an emergency. being true friends, we had no choice but to get her to the hospital, even if it means all her family will find out. but in the end she was grateful-everybody was grateful because she was so close in losing her life. that night gave me a migraine because of the stress.

then came the last week of our duty in batangas. i haven't mentioned that yet, have i? last week was the start of another 'hell duty days' because we have to spend three days in dorms near the hospital. a few friends and i were fed up with the dorm and the dorm owner and so this week so we decided to be indies and go there by car (anne's car, who else?). so we set off on monday night (we pretended to have duty on monday even if its holiday, but due to some annoying reasons we ended up leaving at past 7pm). the roadtrip was okay, soundtrip and jokes until we reached kishy's grandma's place where we'll stay. we've managed to avoid the 'bituka' in lemery, cause they sais it's reall dangerous specially at night. we slept at one and woke up at around six.

anne and i bonded for a while, before we all decided to head out to the beach before going to duty. we went to....wawa beach! ( i know, anne's CI told us that once she and her family went there and they were being laughed at, i won't tell the reasaons!Ü) but hey, all the batangueños we've asked said it was the most 'okay' beach there. and so we rented a cottage, volumed up the soundsystem of the car, and prepared to take a dip when the annoying badjaos selling pearls and stuff started annoying the hell out of us. and then the creepy part started. dun dun dun...

we didn't notice the other occupants of the cottage beside our until one of them approached anne(who is starting to get gullible bec of the badjaos) i dntknow what they did cause anne's in the car while i wa salready in the cottage, and the next thing we know, they were offering us beers and foods. an old man came to anne, introduced himself as the father of the two of the guys in the group) and said thet one of them wanted to have anne's number. of course we found it weird and shrugged it off and went to the beach.

then after some time we saw them riding a boat(rented), and since we wanted to ride as well ( but dnt have the money to pay) we waved at them so they offered us a ride. that was a fun experience, they even let me drive the boat! haha! and then as we were near the shore, the two brothers asked mine and anne's number. can we say eewww!

and then we went back to the cottage and they offered us beer and foods again. then the father started annoying us by talking shit about his sons. they're middle-aged fools for pete's sake! we really had no choice but to kindly entertain them (our goal was for them to give us money for gas), but in the end we were disapointed. the older borther gave anne a bracelet bought from the badjao) and the younger one (with many tattoos, ugh) gave me a pearl set (i looked like a donya in it, my goodness!)and so as went we rode back to our 'dorm' we said to ourselves never to mention it to anyone. its creepy enough as it is. and so we went to duty sleepy and tired.

the next day we went to wawa beach again, this time without the dirty old men but with more annoying badjaos. the beach was full then yesterday and it was more fun. we bought foods from the market, and we stayed in the waters under the sun for as long as i can remember and now im suffering minor sunburn. our CI wanted my group to report at 11, and made an excuse of coming late and making up at the other group(anne, kishy and bart's group) and she agreed. love my CI. i couldnt thank her enough.Ü

so after duty we went straight home. we were so kind to let a couple ride with us to lemery, even though it was out of our way and the wife so so arrogant she was only a caregiver lang pala, even offering us 50 pesos. what the hell if it was 500 or 300 we would've accepted it. then we asked some townspeople how to get to tagaytay without passing the 'bituka'. he pointed us the way, and then later on we noticed that the road and scenery was new and the next thing we know we were passing by the road we were avoiding since coming to batangas. and we're super low on gas too. we were all concentrating and holding our breaths the whole time. we were so nervous for many things and we could only breathe a sigh of relief we got out of the scary road. haha!

got home at past 1 am. slept til 12 noon and again i didn't go to class and im typing this and at the same time waiting for my ordered flash urban havs to be delivered. so tagal! hay.

bonding

2008-03-22T20:40:00.002+08:00

woke up this morning (or mid-morning) to naths' and meg's text, tambay daw kami kila meg. so we went there, and had fun. the end.

haha and of course i won't end it like that, first time namen nag bonding ulet, due to my absence sa mag lakad nila. i feel sad and guilty dahil hindi nako nakakasama, and i hope i can catch up this summer. we did nothing but eat, talk, laugh, and just...bond. we even painted easter eggs. that was fun. i wish i could spend more time with them, cause i think i'm not being a good friend anymore.

oh well. i expect to have a fun-filled summer this year! if only i have cash...to burn...Ü

early summer get-away: from south to north baby!

2008-03-20T10:31:00.006+08:00

right, so we've finally pushed through with our plan that has been concocting since 1st sem last year: roadtrip to la union, then to ilocos. we did everything as we had planned, we stayed at our grandparents' house in la union, then went to ilocos norte to meet our tropa, jhing, who lives there, to take us to Pagudpud, the so-called "boracay" of the north. sounds like real fun, right? you have no idea. but there's the best and the worst part of this little adventure, and i guess i'm going for the best first, since mas marami sya kesa sa worst.

BEST:

the trip to la union. nauna ako umalis with ate may. nagcommute lang kami while the others traveled by car. it was my first time traveling to la union without my parents! and i was a bit skeptical as to how we (me and my friends) are going to be received by my relatives there. i was so ashamed and grateful for their efforts and hospitality.

the beach. oh yeah. i can still picture the whole place. the white-ish, fine sand, the waves, the sunset... thanks to jhing and her tito everything went smoothly. hindi kami nahirapan. it was so much fun. Saud resort is perfect. i WILL return to that place.

bonding with the star of the trip-Anne. she was the reason that i've made so much effort in letting them stay in our province kahit hindi naman ako lagi andun, just because it's her birthday and of course i want her to enjoy our trip. we went straight to the beach with our traveling clothes on! haha we waited until the sunset before going out of the water and then we just chilled at the seashore. man, heaven talaga ang part na yon, i will never forget that moment. we drank ourselves silly with tequila, and waited the clock to strike twelve and greet her happy birthday. i think we did that, nga lang, we're too much intoxicated to care.

hiking to kabigan falls. i am now officially a nature lover! we hiked for 1.5 km, i almost lost one of havaianas slipper sa pagtawid sa mga ilog, my feet were sore, and in the end, it was pure heaven. the scenery was awesome. beyond words. haha OA na siguro ako but there's really not enough words to describe it. i am that AWED. haha.i just wish i could have so much opportunity to go to different places and see the sights and scenery they can offer. and i even drank the water. definitely better than mineral water. bilib din ako sa havs ko. they never failed me,kahit naputikan na at lahat.

ano pa...oh, lastly, going back to manila by commute again! this time, with a classmate. Anne and co. are planning to go to baguio pa(which unfortunately didn't happen, because they ran out of money, sad), so nagpaiwan kami ni kishy sa laoag, where jhing had to see us off the bus. i really feel so responsible and an adult for the first time! haha. i feel happy that my parents are trusting me that much na these days. cause if they let me be this way, i'll definitely learn to be more responsible for myself.

.............and now the 2 worst part of the journey. i really don;t want to put it here myself, but i guess i have to. here goes.

WORST

1. Anne's friends. oh no, not the ELYA, her highschool friends. i wouldn't say much about them here, but let's just say na nagkamali si anne na pagsamahin and tropa niya from imus, then kami, her college friends in an outing. they were that awful and im thanking the gods na na-ejoy ko padin ang roadtrip, cause there's this saying that in a journey,no matter where you go, you wouldn't enjoy everything if you're not enjoying the company you're in. and i believe that's right.good thing i'm THAT good in ignoring things i don't want to notice.

2. DIGICAM. that's the worst thing that's been putting me down in the whole trip. all i have is memories, but i want pictures dammit, and i want myself IN them!

so there. i just git back home, and i'm ready to sleep after posting this. and oh, im definitely going back to Pagudpud. happy birthday anne!

hell teacher subrevega!

2008-02-13T00:54:00.000+08:00

haha i don't know if tama yung title ko sa anime. hell teacher nube ba yun? basta. haha. my first and probably last entry for the month of february. and i think i can pretty summarize the happenings this past week: HELL.

although we were lucky to be assigned sa Parong lying-in (we've got 6 dr cases already in just 2 days duty), karma greeted us in the form of our clinical instructor. as in....! i won't rant the entire details baka malasin ako at matagpuan niya tong site ko, ako pa naman ang hotseat sa kanya nung saturday. i really don't understand why there are some instructor like that. i mean, we were there to learn, bakit sila magagalit tuwing magtatanong kami, we were given the right to ask questions di ba?

and as usual, lagi akong cursed every second sem. im on thin ice now sa mga grades ko...and i'm having doubts if i'll make it to the next level this summer (crosses fingers!)

one advice from a friend: ang buhay ay parang sugal. di ko alam kung san niya nakuha yun, baka imbento lang. pero it makes sense to me. and although i'm not always a risk-taker...why the hell not di ba?

splurge!

2008-01-31T16:52:00.000+08:00

as usual kapag kasama ko si anne sky's the limit tlga ang pag gasta. but i couldn't anyone but myself dahil nag eenjoy naman ako sa ginagawa namen..kahapon natuloy kame sa moa kahit walang auto (na-spoiled na kame masyado, di na sanay lumakad ng walang tsekot!), naloka sa pagpili na havaianas (dapat kasi pare-pareho kame,ayun nauwi sa iisang concept na style, iba-iba lang ng kulay), at muntik ng mamatay sa ice skating. oo na, bano ako dun dahil geez, i've never been on ice til yesterday, and xmpre tao lng ako nadadapa din. haha. pero di ko tinantanan yung rink hanggat di aki nkkpag skate ng matino. so ayun. at least di nako nsslide.

movie marathon at foodtrip din kame nitong linggo nato. i am legend at saw 4 (yeah!)at yung combo sa tokyo tokyo na pang apat pero naubos nameng tatlo. ganun sa greenwich super share for four na para sa tatlo. haha. syet.

kulang ako sa tulog para mag english. haha. duty n naman mamaya sa sir Baba. next week sa parong na kame sa taguig. amoy dugo sa shit ang labas ko nito. hey.

TRIBES/TRIBU--whatever!

2008-01-17T23:33:00.000+08:00

kung gano ka-tahimik yung bday celebration ko yesterday, tonight made up for it. TRIBES/TRIBU is now the place for worship for us! haha. well, not really, but the place was a blast! after our 8-3 class, con, dom, rator, kishy, bethle, weh and i went to ruins to shop for our green shirt ( yeah tuloy na tuloy ang planong gumawa ng group shirt namen!) unfortunately, apat lng kameng nkabili. then we headed to tribu na without betz and weh (you can guess why:boyfriends.), and it was one of the best drinking session ever. if you're ever been to tribu you can share my enthusiasm in praising the place. the great thing was we got the best place, where we drank, ate, talked and laughed ourselves out. Mindoro Sling smelled like bubblegum, and tasted heaven. the main highlight of this little get-together was the SHESHA. yeah, that's our new God! haha. just kidding. it was so addictive it there wasn't any illegal chemicals in it. we're definitely planning to return. may two months pang celebration in order, con and dom's birthdays.

as of now, NAPAKARAMI nameng plano, i dnt even know where to start. haha. but first things first, we have to buy havaianas and THEN, start saving up for the ultimate summer vacation: LA UNION, ILOCOS,then BAGIUO. nice, eh? im just hoping that we'll get to fulfill it. masarap talaga gumimik pag may kotse! woohoo!

well..there goes my teenage years...

2008-01-16T07:57:00.000+08:00

what can i say about this, there's nothing phenomenal about leaving my teens and entering the age of adulthood...its just SUCKS big time! oh man, being a year older means more responsibilities, and wrinkles. but hey, im just 20, so im legally an adult now in Japan. mwahaha.

anyway, i woke up at 12:30 midnight cause i slept since 4pm yesterday, so here i am now typing away, and watching ISWAK 2. (a perfect bday gift for myself.haha.not quite) i think this will be a quiet bday celebration for me, cause hey, its my rest day and we dnt have classes. haha. it's just me now, with our helper. nice huh? i have plenty of time to think things through....hmn...

well, that's it. happy birthday to me.

from thesis to global to central to...

2008-01-10T05:25:00.000+08:00

i'm not going to mention that in here! haha so much for my new year entry... well i thought things would lay low for me this year, but boy was i wrong! haha now that it's 6 days until i finally say goodbye to my teenage years, i'm kinda edgy right now.

global was...alright. because there're few people and fewer rides, but i enjoyed the Ranger, it was a new and different experience and the Mortuary! i barely scraped my knee cause i slipped while running with a stampede cause i thought at first that a scary man-like machine was running after us. i was never been scared by a haunted house that much.

just got home, its past 5 am and i'm logging in to post this before i forget everything that's happened over the influence frozen mango margarita. yum.

oh and may i mention that i'm never, ever going back to the school's registrar again. i thought doing office duty in my nstp was a piece of cake, but hey, i was wrong again.

anyway, this planned/unplanned escapade will be one of the most unforgettable, because it was my first time to be in a (guess!) kudos kishy and anne! haha. i'm cranky.

ang babaeng walang pahinga..

2007-12-24T17:02:00.000+08:00

true true.. i've been pretty hectic before christmas itself. pano, i've been SICH with MUMPS (worst disease to ever hit poor me) and i haven't fully recovered, i still have a little lump on the left side of my jaw...it's annoying! then two days duty, night shift, then 4 hours of sleep before my sis and i went to town to christmas shop, then met our parents at gerry's for a little dinner celebration for their silver wedding anniversary.aww. then after that anne texted me na ayos na daw yung car nya and tuloy yung drinking session sa tribu, so at 9 pm umuwi na kami ni jec, i waited for two hours bago sila dumating ni kishy! imagine my mom's protective side. grr. so instead of tribu, ,nag bar na lang kame sa malate. i won't elaborate the details of the event here.Ü i went home around six am, tried to sleep for 30 minutes then took a bath, got dresses for the holy family's christmas party. and it was so tiring.

now im just relaxing with the rest of my family. can't wait for the opening of the gifts later after noche buena.Ü happy christmas to all! mwah

2nd week!

2007-11-18T07:29:00.000+08:00

arhg i can't come up with a better title, im cranky! just came home from my 10pm-6am duty in kawit cavite, with two DR cases in just one shift. i know for others its nothing, but for us who expected the rest of our stay there to be super bored out of our minds, its a bit overwhelming. of course i handled the cord care, thats my fort. watched the fantastic performance of episiotomy and episiorraphy (that is, the cutting ang sewing back of the vagina.Ü)i'm getting used to all of it.

i think im gonna skip nstp. shh...

first week of 2nd sem...hell!

2007-11-11T13:11:00.001+08:00

oh yes, nothing can be compared to this first week. it has been unstable, and surreal. i have not yet settled on my schedule (if that is what you call a schedule), haven't gotten over my sembreak blues, and my group haven't attended our duty and drank the whole night away last night. i dnt know if this is a good start...

but the summer break is only 100 days away (my nursing research prof said that this sem composed of 100 days only, yey!),and so its just like counting the days before christmas, so im excited already.

so goodluck in my OR duty in kawit kalaayan, im hoping against hope that a case or two would come our way, its such an abandoned place its actually creepy. my hyperactive imagination is scaring the hell outta me (images of massacre and all the scary movie crap revolving around nearly deserted hospitals). aaahhhhhh! fcuk.

ah, the joys of sembreak

2007-10-26T01:25:00.000+08:00

okay, so i've been on the net regularly, but why have i not posted a new entry yet? we call it boredom, people. or, uhm...forgetfulness.

anyway, summary is all i can offer for myself, im a bit too lazy right now to exaggerate thingsÜ

sembreak... is a bummer. no barkada outing (there is two supposedly, but, well, it was cancelled), no MONEY! and so im cooped up in my humble home without ever seeing the daylight (exagge!)

but...i wasted my time by watching dvds. yes. korean films and animation makes my day. i can live with only those as my entertainment.

and because i had nothing else to do, i decided to dye my hair.and i don't know what it made me look like. grr...

okay, that's all. im thinking of what anime titles to watch next. care to share?

girl's night-out

2007-09-22T14:30:00.000+08:00

of course we gurls need some unwinding! sa sobrang toxic ba naman ng school nursing plus sa toxic pa na c.i... so we saved up for the whole week and nagstar-city...tropang elya with khit and weh..biglaan nga napasama si weh..

it was fun, in short..then malate next, sa tia maria's...live band, then disco..saya din, kaya lang kulang nga mga fafa...walang wala...

next plan tagaytay ata...ewan basta after pa ng finals...saraaapp..!

GIG na, naging BATO pa...

2007-08-30T12:37:00.000+08:00

last tuesday, ang ganda na eh. sbi nga ni cab, ang linis daw. malamang xempre, drummer at lead guitarist eh ung so-called mentors namen. payag na sila na tumugtog with us sa gig this sat..kasi nga gusto man lng namen un ma-experience.

so un nga, kahit galing pa ko ng duty sa hospital, dumeretso group namen kina cab para sa rush na case presentation, at sumugod ako agad sa practice. i thought it was so worth, it really was, ang linis talaga ng tugtugan ng torpe at wrong impression, naabutan pa nga kami ng banda cab dun. naghiwalay kami na may magandang pinag-usapan: na pupunta ako sa solo the next day para bayaran na yung mga tickets.then came the drummer's text the next morning.

sabi niya nung gabi lng daw nia nalaman na puno na ang schedule nia para sa band biya dahil 22g2g din cla sat. so kamusta naman yun. nathz and i really doubt his excuse. magaling xa, one of the best drummer i've seen, at kayang kaya niyang tumugtog on the spot. we have so many theories in mind kung bakit xa biglang nagback-out, but i wont put the rest. of course we were disappointed.natural lang yun, pero hindi namen magawang magalit dahil kami naman ang nakiusap sa kanila in the first place, at malaki na din ang nagawa nila sa hahamaking banda namen. but it really hurt, na parang iniwan kame sa ere. yung lead naman namen, he took the situation as a chance na magback out na din, he said na may gagawin naman daw dapat talaga sya sa sat, and that we shouldnt wori dahil madami pa namandaw gig.

ang sakin lng, sa tingin ko wala nang gig sa susunod dahil malapit na kami mag-give up sa band. imagine, from five original members, tatlo na kaming nagsusumikap na patakbuhin ung band. it really does get tiring.nakakapagod.nakakainis.nakakapanghinayang.may ibubuga pa pero para san pa...its sad.

i think i'm going crazy...

2007-08-27T00:48:00.000+08:00

sa tinagal-tinagal kong hindi nag-update, nakalimutan ko na and mga nangyari.haha.oh well. let me summarize things up.hospital duty.busy as a beehive.sundae syndrome, going downhill. we're trying to form a 'new' band, hence, by not letting our 'drummer' know about our practices. stuck kasi kame at walang progress. yun at yun lang. then hindi pa xa nakikinig. she's not really into the band. we're almost given up on the band ourselves, pero inaalala namen yung mga sacrifice namen at effort ng mga taong tumulong samen. they believed in our determination and we dnt want to dissapoint them by suddenly giving up. it's just not right. we've been practising lately, without, the drummer, and the lead. gusto ko na ngae din magtampo sa leadista namen, and i want to question her interest in the band, atfer-all, xa tong eager na eager sa umpisa. things are like yo-yo, nothing's stable anymore.

on the good side, someone actually wants to include in a gig-read that line again, i dare you.apparently,tita cherry was fsacinated by our band-an all-girl band, at gusto kame isali sa gig nila this coming saturday(yes, you read it right). and so, here's the dilemma. we're amateurs. totally. but we want the exposure, we want the experience, just once, before we finally lose hope and give up on the band itself. and the plan is, we'll do it, but our mentors (yes, the drummer and the guitar coach) would be part of the band, replacing the missing original members. i knew-the rest of the remaining original band knew that it would be a blast, but we dnt know if they'll agree, and all will unfold tomorrow, in our practice..

on the whole, things are still murky, but there's the flicker of hope. we really want this. we do. we just hope the rest of our esteemed bandmates shares the same passion. one could only hope.

"derecho lang, ENJOY LIFE!"

2007-07-27T10:51:00.000+08:00

on the 26th of july i was finally capped as a nursing
student. xmpre super ayos ako ng buhok and dagdag L
dahil naka all-white kme. the whole ceremony went
smooth kahit mejo mainit, rents and i ate at max's
then umuwi ako to get a little sleep para sa inuman
kina kit.

dumating kami dun mga past five na din. tambay,
kantahan at kwentuhan muna sa may basketball court,
then nang dumating na ung mga boys,nag-ambagan na, and
the drinking session started.
tawanan, kantyawan, kantahan, kalibugan, tsismisan
hanggang sa mag past 12 na. uuwi na dapat sina leeyen
at si wendi (winde kay anne.haha) then a rather
compulsive decision came to us: roadtrip daw kame. so
sakay kameng lahat na babae sa kotse, anne, ako, kit,
bart leeyen at wendi at iniwan namen cle cab,jopay,jp,
bauzon at bugz. everything from here on went awfully
but thrillingly crazy.

sarap ng roadtrip namen dahil gabi na, open air kame,
with music and we're having a good time hanggan
makarating na kame sa malate. balak isang pitchel lng
ng beer then uwi na din kame. sobrang naiihi na kami ni
kit at bart at dumiskarte kame sa isang bar, sa arkdia,
pinromote pa ng mga promoters dun na andun and join the
club, which is andun nga! haha maliit lng pero maganda
yung bar, sobrang lapit lng ng stage kaya kitang kita
mo kung panu tumagaktak pawis nila sa mukha. haha.
labas kami agad, at nagkatuliruan na dahil hinahanap na
ng ermats nia si khit, iniwan kasi nya mga lalaki sa
bahay.

so okay, on the way kami pauwi, nang haranging kami ng
mga pulis. turned out, napadaan kami sa may nagche2ck
ng driver's license. unlucky for us, naiwan pala ni
anne ung kanya.3 days daw sa kulungan. parang di na
ma-explain mga reaksyon sa ga mukha namen. dalawa kami
ni anne na kumausap din sa parang pinaka head nila.
sinabi nameng nursing s2dents kami at kakatapos lng ng
capping nmen at napadaan lng kme sa malate pero di din
natuloy yung gimik namen. naawa naman yung pulis at
pinauwi na kami. abut-abot ang pasasalamat namen sa
malaking pwet ni anne at kalibugan.

di pa kami nakakalayo ng kusang namatay yung sasakyan.
WALA NA KAMING GAS. at sa mismong main road pa kami
namatayan. ready nang umalis si anne at ako para umuwi
skanila at kumuha ng license pero di din natuloy and we
tried our luck para mapagana yung car.we managed to
make to the nearest gas station, at wala talagang imik
on the way. anne, bart and I were making small talk,
joking ang lightening the situation. sibrang agrabyado
na si kit dahil natawag na ermats na tintxt na kme ng
mga lalaki kung asan na kame.
we dropped leeyen and wendi sa times. naawa naman ako
kay dom dahil nakatulog xa sa sobrang pagod. binaba
namen si bart sa southland, then in came the next
problem. di kami makapasok sa village nila kit dahil
hihingan nga kami ng lisensya. so super txt naman ako
na papuntahin cna jopay para manghiram na license. they
drove us back to kit's house, nauna na si kit dahil
andun bf nia at pinapagalitan xa. di na nagpakita
ermats niya. super pagod na kami at bagsak kami nila
anne at bugz.we slept at past three ang woke up at
seven para umuwi na. nagpaalam lng kame kay khit, na
ginising pa namen. her mom was in the kitchen, and was
urging us to eat breakfast but we declined dahil
ngmamadali din si anne. nag explain kami sa mom ni kit
and graciously said our goodbyes (nakz) nahihiya na
talaga kami sa bahay nila kit.

and now...i went home, hinatid ako ni anne, naligo,
kumain at kakatapos ko lng lagyan ng mga kanta mo3 ni
bugz and then this. in short, wala na talaga sa
bokabularyo ko ang salitang pahinga.
may pasok pa kame mamayang 11:30. kit was worried dan
would break up with her, im thinking about not going to
school, ganun din si kit na balak na lng mag SM...

and im so sleepy right now. i'll never forget this
experience.

we're making progress!

2007-07-25T19:19:00.000+08:00

july 24-25

sumasang-ayon talaga ang panahon sa G-Spot. two days in a row na kumpleto and banda with our two mentors, dheniz and vince for the drums and guitar. we couldn't thank them enough for the effort and willingness to waste their time onus amateurs.but today was a good practice. super may progress na talaga. sunud-sunod yung tugtog namen though hindi pa talaga malinis dahil may problem pa din kame sa coordination and timing, but all was well. and it was fun, too. kahapon dumeretso kami sa foodshop to drink and celebrate a little, together with anne's boytoy(haha super L!) and wey, na sinumpong ng topak. wala sya ngayon which was good dahil walang magulo, walang feeling, walang mayabang, at walang negative sa practice. nga lng kanina pissed off ako kay meg. ngaon ko lng talaga totally nakikita yung ugali niyang maraming kinakaayawan ng tao. i was used to being confided by others na ayaw nila kay meg. now i share the same feelings.

last day na namen sa community kanina, may pumasok na baliw ata dun na ngkukunwaring buntis xa. scary. it was quite sad na tapos na kame sa area na yun, at nakatuwa dahil sa last day ko talagang nakausap ng matino yung kinaiinisan ko sa kabilang group. as in chika talaga. haha. may wheels ulet kanina, kai ngpa-gas, tas sa garahe ule kme ngpractice. as in wala talaga akong ipon ngayon. now im beggining to feel na worth it yung pagod at sacrifices namen lahat, na yung away between sameng magkakaibigan nung isang araw ay kelangan din pala para maayos kami. at xmpre super grateful talaga ako sa nagtuturo samen na ultimo set-up at pagtotono sila gumagawa. para lng kmeng mga batang pinaglalaro ng mga magulang sa inayos na bahay-bahayan.

at hindi naman parang last will and testament tong pinagsusulat ko dito.haha.hay. basta. new experience talaga toh. it changed my boring routine in life.

then the problem arise

2007-07-23T20:49:00.000+08:00

akala namen half day kame ngayon kasi nga SONA diba, bit we were given a loooooong break, with assignment, then we're to meet back at the health towere at 4 to check for attendance. so i went home to do the asid assignnment and went back to school para i-meet cna nathz and vince...met up with anne and khit, then cab, medyo toxic cause we're been worried on how ditch cab, kasi nga he's our competition, pero wala kaming mapagpractice-an so we relied on his help and went to a studio to practice.

it was okay, magaling talaga pumalo si cab, though nahiya kami cause he's competition and we're so amatuers and needed help, but it went okay. nga lng, inaway namen si meg, our supposed to be dummer. pangalawang beses na niya toh ginawa samen. she kept on saying she wanted this as much as do pero ayun, mas pipiliin pa niya si wey na ARAW-ARAW niyang nakikita kesa mag sacrifice ng konti para sa practice na neve naman tlagang naging concrete, laging on the spot, at pabago-bago and decision. di man lng niya abot ang level ng determination at dedication nameng lahat dahil madami kaming lakad at rules at pagod na ininda para lng mkpgprcatice. she's so defensive at pinrangka na namen xa. (well, with the help of alcohol, nag inuman kami nia nathz sa fudshop aftr ng practice).

hindi ko na alam kung anung mangya2ri samen, but im sure that im still all for it. sa pagod at hirap ba naman na ginawa ko. i wont let this beginning end in a total waste. not if i can't help it.

super effort!

2007-07-23T20:34:00.001+08:00

JULY 22
this day has been...interesting.

may pasok kme kahit linggo, general practice ng capping, kaya super late nako, kahit dumating mga bisita namen dahil pauwi na si amang sa states..

aun pagtapos ng practice na mejo ok naman, punta kami sa bluecourt sa may amin to watch the basketball game, boys of our section versus section Q ata. and my gosh, super L na naman ako kay james.wahahaha dami din fafa pero xmpre loyal aku.haha. asyig nga apat kme gurl nanuod si con, dom, ako(vibe) at si rator, na naglaro din.the only gurl. may auto pa si anne na nadala, so super haba ng hair namen, haha! pinaglaro lng namen si rator then umalis din kame(tambak kase section namen haha) then sa pilar na kina khit to practice. di pwde si meg so apat na gurls lng kame. on the spot namen pinuntahan si vince sa happyville para magpaturo. then punta kame sa bahay nila vince with his cousin pao.super tutotial nga bassist din kasi si pao.

ayun binaba namen si naths sa southland, then nag shawarma kami courtesy of khit. tambay konti kina khit then sibat na kami ni anne. in short, past ten nako nakauwi, which is lucky for me, okay lng sa parents ko. haha.

honestly, i think we're making progress. dedication and determination lng tlga para maaus. kung hindi...then..bahala na si batman.haha

stress with the capital S

2007-07-21T21:56:00.000+08:00

im still depressed over the fact our band cannot retain

our name, G-Spot. its girl spots, you know. haha

finished the super grueling prelim exams, and waited at

mcdo for an eternity for our "band" to be completed.

went to kit's house and settled for what to play. in

short it was SO TIRING, ANNOYING,

TIRING..whatever..just...some people are plain pain in

the arses...and it weighed me down and stressed

me....gah..

it's good to see that almost all of us are determined

to see through this band. of course there are

professional help, haha. im quite glad. though for now,

im beat.

birthday gurl

2007-07-21T21:53:00.000+08:00

ah, this is a fairly busy week, or weeks, this month of
july. wala na nga akong time to even update my blog,
super madali na lang, and it lack details. well, to sum it all up, this first one a half month of
1st sem has been full of babies and pregnant moms,
injections,infuriating *other* groupmates, laughter,
perverted girlfriends, hidden desires,harry potter and
order of the phoenix,
friend-turned-admirers,exams,capping practice,
completion of capping things, drinking sessions (at my
place, twice!),tummy aches and constipation(i just had
to put this!haha!) and now we're currently working on
forming a band again. what can you say, mga ambisyosa
lng naman ang nglalakas-loob pumasok sa nescafe
soundskool.haha.super goodluck.

one word: stress.

haha, but fortunately, my skin finally agreed to
cooperate with me for once. funny how my breakout
diminished just when i ran out of facial treatments.
weird.
kahit nakakapag basa padin ako ng aking all-time
favorit hobby, which is reading fanfics, i still feel
tired. sobra. so far, so good. im doing fine.
nakakatuwa yung feeling na makakasalubong m mga dati
mong friends and classmates. i still miss them and the
old times. oh, well. today is july 20, meg's birthday!
happy birthday girlfriend!

missing out on so much

2007-07-06T16:25:00.000+08:00

yes, i really am, missing out on so much in my social life. it started this last summer. besides not having enuf money, motivation seems to have deserted me completely. and my friends are now noticing that i am really hard to get invited into anything. last night was the proof.

it was meg's early 19th bday celebration and at the same time louise's 18th bday. meg's party wwas held at the foodshop, the famous drinking place in our school. ning's having a buffet feast in her aunt's house. so saan naman ako pupunta diba? the fact na nauna ang invitation ni louise, i already said yes to both(yes, i know, that was bad of me to do so)and in the end of the day, i stayed at home.hah. yeah, i did, and i have a good reason to do so. i went to gym the day before and the desire to lose some weight slapped me in the face the following morning. i could not move my muscles. haha.add the nice weather(i was so thrilled when it started to rain, hard) plus my ever lack of motovation, and there you go, wala kong pinuntahan.
and the truth is, this attitude of mine is starting to scare me. was it because i really lack motivation to move my ass, or because i dnt want to company? its not the latter for sure, but i find my laziness harder and harder to cure. gah! and meg and i almost got into a light argument about it. hindi ko na lang pinalaki, kasi kapag mas lalo nila akong pinapaguilty na kesho ang hirap ko daw ayain, lalo akong nawawalan ng gana pumunta.its not that mahirap akong ayain, kaya lng the circumstances are just not the lucky. laging may hindrances. and i guess yun ang hindi nila maintindihan.

ph, well.i just have to let this out. im off downloading death note soundtrack. love light!haha

nausea

2007-06-23T17:46:00.000+08:00

last night...was hell.

sinamahan ko si meg sa initiation ng taekwondo club sa perpz. pumunta ako kse excited ako kung panu sila ag initiate, and to cheer meg as well. turned out, next friday pa. so i watched meg train with the others. i kinda missed training, too. but oh well.then nung pauwi na kami, nahatak ako sa inuman sa may tambayan. well naisip ko wala naman akong ggwin.met mutual friends, pero saglit lng kme dun kasi may amats na din yung iba. so the thrre newcomers, Me, Meg and Aarole(meg's cute guy friend), lumipat kme sa fudshop. call me ignorant but that was the first time i've been there. i've been hearing about the place for long but never stepped foot there. so there i was, already tipsy. magandang pwesto ung nakuha ni aarole, mlapit sa cr. haha! so with one large pitcher of red horse, meg was already down, totally innebriated, and me vomitting twoce. TWICE. the last time i spewed my guts out was when in i was in my 4th yr highschool, nung nagka dengue ako. sino ba naman ang gusto sumuka, may lumalabas pa sa ilong ko.haha! but it was fun. may dalawa kme nakilala girls dun nung sumusuka nako. chi and tin. such sweet girls. andun pa si clandes at ej(college classmate). kakhiya i was so drunk na. pero bilib ako sa sarili ko. naka uwi ako mag isa! without anyone hauling me home. meg was soooooooooo drunk she finally lost it. dinramahan ako. and, uhm, kinda kissed aarole.hah. i was so zoned out. inuwi xa ni wey, meg's current bf.hottie too.hehe.pagdating ko sa bahay nagpalit lng ako ng damit then natulog na. di ko napasukan yung 7am class ko.

so yun. that was my day yesterday.haha.lame

huwaw!!!

2007-06-18T16:00:00.000+08:00

napakadmi kong kwento pero dahil nasire yung monitor namen, i spent the remaining days of my vacation in misery.hay?
dami din ngyri nitong nkaraang linggo. new hairdo ang lola mo....as usual dvd marathon...na suck in pa ko sa relihiyon ng mga koreano.hahaha! oh well..

fathers day kahapon...gerry's grill kme..hay

first day of classes ngayon, BSN nako, and the first day sucks.ugh. community!!!!!!!!!! unang araw moa agad dahil kinahapunan pa dumating c.i namen.hay talaga. oh wel. eto lng ang nasulat ko sa lahat ng mga nangyari sakin

hell of a summer goodbye!

2007-05-27T13:34:00.000+08:00

yes!!!!! rain finally heard our pleas and humble prayers and it finally came! huuu satap ng pakiramdam,no more sweltering heat! haha

last friday, may25, we went ti silang, (me, malyd and jhoan) to visit our very preggy friend hannah. it was fun all the waym, bonding moment talaga, gusto pa nga kami pag-overnytin ni hannah dun but no can do! we'll try sa fiesta nila sa june12-13.whoo sana matuloy.

aun kahapon mother-sister bonding sa mall.hehe. saya din.at inuyasha marathon.yes, i know 'what the hell?inuyasha??' haha what can i do, curious ako sa anime na un. okay, uhm...what else...so far masaya ako dahil malamig-lamig na ang panahon. and im not like, regretful na that i missing so much lakad with nathz and meg. wala dn naman ako mapapala, sayang sa pera, and sa pagod. im the laziest ever.

whoa!!!

2007-05-23T13:13:00.000+08:00

as usual...di na naman ako nkpg update agad...gawd..gala gala

went to glorietta kaming showstoppers(haha, i know i know cla meg nagicp ng name), starbux, pix and meet si wey for the first time...may 15 yun.. then this monday lng, may 21, punta kami mall of asia with charlotte, nag papic kami (great image) 500bux,yeah! alis na kasi sila char pabalik ng australia sa wednesday, that is today! aww...yeah..galing kame school...nakasabay namen si mam weng, ayun.haha.shucks..whatta life.......... alang pera!

time flies and im still here

2007-05-11T22:36:00.000+08:00

ah, time really does fly so fast i hardly find time to
update my blog anymore.gone were the formal and super
correct english gramar, i just log in and type whatever
words come out of my mind into the keyboards. now i
realized that as i ascend another year in my 'chosen'
course, my free time slowly disappears and i often find
myself staying up late FOR REAL. haha. not those
stay-up-late-doing-random-stuffs that i was used to
before. ah, life's getting harder.

summer classes ended last week, and on the last day of
our exam,may 5, we went to Silang (hannah's house), for
a small get-together, cause she's six-months pregnant
and she won't be able to continue her studies next sem.
and well, for a while there was a small
misunderstanding, cause i dnt want to go cause khit dont
want to go. then at the end i though about hannah and
how she prepared for that get-together, so i went along
with malyd and jhoan. and it was a good thing, we had
fun with the boys (cab, jopay, chris, jp and ej. too bad
james wasn't there, i was a bit disappointed, haha).
drank liqour moderately, and well, just had fun. the
boys went home (quite drunk), and jhoan,cab and i slept
over at hannah's place. it was a nice bonding moment
with her.

clearance signing wasn't quite as hell as before. it
gave an excuse to to go school and get some kickback
money. haha. this week i haven't been able to go meg and
nathz' mallhopping, and it caused quite a dilemma, cause
they were quite miffed at me for ditching them for 3
days straight.

on wednesday, may 9, i accompanied Hannah to greenhills
to buy some maternity clothes. i didn't have enough
money to satisfy my urges to buy this and that, but i
had fun watching hannah go through stuffs and ended up
buying the same type of clothes but with different
styles and colors.

and then today, i finally made up to my bestfriends for
my absence and went to charlotte's condominium fro
swimming, it was fun and tiring, and i felt a little out
of place. just a little, though. i couldn't blame them,
they were together for 3 strsight days and there were
some topics that i couldn't relate to. it's quite fine
by me, i can't turn back time i still wouldn't be able
to go anyway.

so there. i should be sleeping but i felt the need to
write this long entry (yes!) before i lose the time to
do this. and im listening to california dreaming remix
and satisfaction, thanks to meg for listening to this
song yesterday,the whole freaking time she stayed here
chilling out.

hannah and malyd's gone. what will happen to me, jhoan
and khit? the only two source of entertainment in our
group just left. darn it. i hate life. it always
changes.

huwaw

2007-04-28T21:18:00.000+08:00

am this super busy? la na ko kwento about my fabulous first summer class.haha. well, not so fabulous,really, but i enjoyed it as it comes to an end. one week na lang bakasyon na talag!

met new friends...as usual, mamimiss ko si Hannah, one my new found friends, dahil magddrop na ang mommy-to-be. im excited for her. hehe.

funny thing, kung kelan ako nawalan ng time sa dati kong ginagawa(lazy days, in short), saka nagsuslputan ang mga lumang admirers. naks, admirers??well, im really sorry to say dahil wala akong panahon sa kanila. i can't handle serious relationships now (huwaw, ako ba toh?) ginagamit ko lang sila actually para di ako tuluyang maloka sa course ko. hehe.

may 2. mothsary namen ni meg. yeah!hahaha...

piercings galore

2007-04-02T19:28:00.000+08:00

yes, this is one of my impulsive moments: HAD MY TONGUE PIERCED. HAHA

well, this is a very memorable day cause i did it with my bestfriend meg, she had a belly ring while i had my tongue ring. next year we plan on having another one, this time vice-versa.haha. cool. now one more dream(eh?): TATTOO. hmn.

summer bummer pa rin ba??

2007-04-01T00:40:00.000+08:00

and the answer is...a fucking big NO!!!

summer class is so toxic. swear. i hardly had the time to even listen to my mp3, much less to do THIS. but so far so good, new faces... new friends...

well, lets what happens...we will...

oh, and an old flame came back (masasabi ko bang flame?shux?) met him during my highschool days..and now..i dnt know...shux talaga...gah!

ENCHANTED!

2007-03-20T15:23:00.000+08:00

ah, now im quite recovered from the enchanted hang-over two days ago. hehe...

it was one word: FUN.....can't describe it in any other terms...whoa.....

excited, or what??

2007-03-16T19:40:00.000+08:00

finally, exams are over! kaso sadly, may algeb ako tom, which is 6pm,pero ok lng, dahil sasamahan ako ni dai2..still namo2blema kami ni jinky sa nstp namen..hey..are we going to be regular students pag tungtong namen ng bsn??hope so...clearance na naman kaya dun na nagka2nda leche-leche...

sa sunday, EK time! call me ignorant or whatever, but in my 19years of living in this beautifully complicated world, ngayon pa lang ako maka2puntang EK. sad, noh? pero ayos lang dahil marami naman kami sa group and first time pu2nta dun sa sunday.and guess what, maayos ang pagtatapos ng sem na to for me. i've read my previous entry and i sound so miserable back there, which was true, but now i've begun to enjoy my friends, dahil mas lalo akong naging close dun sa hindi masyado close nung 1st sem. and im happy for that.

but i believe karma is out there to get me dahil sa kalokohang pinaggawa ko. geez, i'll never learn....

long time no post

2007-03-03T15:21:00.000+08:00

wow, ganito na ba ako ka-busy? o bisibisihan lang? hehe more than 2 months na ding walang update, well,,,let me summarize the happenins...hotrock, yeah, dai2 and i are into that christian worship, kakatuwa nga kc andun lng kme for the bandm and now my kanya2 naaming crush...

zero bala ako dahil almost every week nalabas ako...with tiffany, pia, cassie or dai2...its kinda fun,fudtrip..and all...nagigng close na din ako sa mga hindi masyado close dati,..im starting to love them as my friends, haha.,,

kakatapos lng din ng case presentation,,,welp..its not satisfactory pero anu pa nga magagawa namen hindi naman nmen gawa yon kundi gawa nila...

what i like most is the issue..hindi talaga mawawala yun sa crircle of friends..as long as hindi ako dawit i want to be in it...gulo??ewan..

matutuloy kaya lakad namen sa enchanted kingdom...hay...

shedding some skin

2007-01-21T23:30:00.000+08:00

kinda tiring, but fun day. Battery exams, or NATCEM, and i was this close to not taking the exam cause i was late..but it was okay, i was pretty confident with my english and spatial parts, but i was all crossed eyed on the math part....

after exams i rushed back home, changed and dragged my sister's sorry ass to town to meet with nathz, one of my bestfriends. we ate at shakey's, went to the cinema sections and were ready to pay for the saw3 tickets when the lady on the counter told us we have to present id's for proof that we're really 18 and above. irritated cause we dont have any id's with us, we went to festival, were jec happily lied her ass off to enter the theatre, and then we wenjoyed the gory movie. it was nice. and i was happy for the gift nathz and meg gave me.

jeepride on the way home was totally aggravating. the driver was tipsy and we almost crashed into other cars, and before it really happens we rode another jeep.

oh, qiqi finally shed her skin! so exciting, at first i thought she lost her leg. it was a nice timing for my birthday. yay.

two days too late

2007-01-19T17:37:00.000+08:00

i just remember to post something here now...bwah! whatever, im fcuking 19, for pete's sake, whatever happened to those almost 2 decades that i've lived and breathed here on earth. sounds like im about to die. well, it was a rather unusual birthday for me. got unexpected greeting from unexpected people. which was way more important than material gifts to me. it was nice, though i get to treat my friends separately, haha what was that..now i get to do something before i leave my teenage years...geez...

how true?

2007-01-12T18:21:00.000+08:00

You scored as Cultural Creative. Cultural Creatives are probably the newest group to enter this realm. You are a modern thinker who tends to shy away from organized religion but still feels as if there is something greater than ourselves. You are very spiritual, even if you are not religious. Life has a meaning outside of the rational.

Cultural Creative

69%

Romanticist

63%

Existentialist

56%

Idealist

56%

Fundamentalist

50%

Modernist

50%

Materialist

50%

Postmodernist

50%

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sayonara 2006

2007-01-01T17:50:00.000+08:00

well...2006...has been quite good to me..nothing remarkable happened, i've been more depressed than ever...and i know masama ang pasok ng taon ko but hopefully it'll change, im the only one who could make a change in my life anyways...i dnt know what the year 2007 has in store for me, and im one year away from finally leaving my teenage years, and i dnt want to!!! being an adult means more responsibilities and i dnt want any of it yet..grr....be mature here...

oh, well, my future entries will determine how my year will turn out.

holidays are so not my days

2006-12-28T19:32:00.000+08:00

haha okay thats not quite true...as usual me and my family celebrated christmas in the same fashion we did in the last years, except that we haven't watched a single movie entry in MMFF, hehe...right now we're sooo obsessed in Princess Hours and It Started With A Kiss, bought lots of dvd this time...

so far, so good, shopped with our money, first exchange gift in the family, and the only thing that ruined it all is my friggin' skin. of all the time my skin chose to have its untimely breakouts...what a great way to greet the new year...

few more days and i'll be 19. i'm not liking this at all.Ü

K.A.R.M.A with a happy twist

2006-12-10T22:48:00.000+08:00

friday, december 8: went to pia's house with red in muntinlupa to do ourreport in sts, it was fun, pia's sister was adorable, and it was traffic all the way home so maco, jec and I arrived at greenhills at 9pm. it was tiring but we had fun, came home at around 2 in the morning, alarmed my fone at 5:30 in the morning but sadly i came to my not-so-complete sense at 7:00(my class is 7:30). so i missed my physics prelims exams AND computer exams AND the report in sts...cause i went out with my highschool friends naths cause she treated me for her birthday. went to Ruins too.

and now its raining. i don't know what to do. Happy Birthday Naths.

happy feet!

2006-12-01T18:55:00.000+08:00

loved the movie!!!!! watched it with moi lande, and classes was suspended due to 'super typhoon' pero wala naman! hay naku its okay,, got class on a saturday. SATURDAY who want class on a saturday?

certainly not me.

F.R.A.G.I.L.E

2006-11-23T09:04:00.000+08:00

that mean two ways in one.

watched fragile with louise, bam and wax. very, very unusual set of people to get together and hang out. but anyways it happened. it was kinda fun, though i had dysmenorrhea ( i knoowwww) and i was kinda depressed the whole but knowing me, im kinda denying. (super). so when we parted ways i texted bam and told her about my prob with her.shes just not the same with as she was with everybody else. i might be jealous with the attention she was giving to our other friends while she was uncomfortable around me. i know, i know im paranoid and i know that she was really having a hard time to act around me cause i remind her of a 'lost' friens. but i swear she was different with me before, she was comfortable around me and treated me the way she treats everyone.

and when she told me that the problem was not with me but with her and that i shouldn worry cause she's sad knnowing that i am sad because of her. now i felt a trendous amount of relief that i started tearing up-you know that feeling, the burning of your eyes that you know tears were threatening to fall. and than a tear fell and then another and another until i was all out sobbing, i said to myself, 'that's just ridiculous', and i just realized it was all like a dam, now i know what it feels like to bottle up your emotions and to completely let it all out by that simple tearing. i was depressed since the start of the semester by so many things; jinky and our friendship gap, missing louise and then bam was like...there with me but so far away. gah...

and now my eyes are still red from crying. i only cry once a year. yay.

never gonna get through this

2006-11-20T15:25:00.000+08:00

so far, still getting worse, so i know i'llnever get through this whole semester.its driving me insane and depressed more than ever. dang it.

last thursday, though, nov 16 i think, was qi qi's birthday, or shall i say the day she became my first ever personal pet, given by louise, who else? she gave me and bambam a goldfish without ever thinking of fishfood so it died in my hands after 24 hours. so far-again shes doing good. [by the way qi qi is pronounced as chichi, whatever]

however, i,am not. my lifes a mess, and i am a complete pessimist.

3rd day high

2006-11-09T10:33:00.000+08:00

i don't like the start of this term. really, i don't. now that louise's in section D i really find it hard to get along with others. and that's what boggles my mind. siguro dahil mejo napalyo ako ky jinky kaya nahihirapan uli akong i-establish yung friendship namen. i was given an advice not to let this 'gap' worsen so i apologized for my actions (na alam kong pansin pla nila) and i started hanging out with her and the others. damn sana naman simula na to ng maayus ayos na samahan.

btw, maco's one of my clinical instructors. i dnt know if im lucky or not.

change is the only thing permanent here

2006-10-26T13:46:00.000+08:00

nothing is really permanent. i guess i have learned follow the saying, 'enjoy it while it lasts.' though i couldn't really say i've lost a great deal of friends or things or whatever, i could say that the smallest of things that i've come to enjoy and suddenly being taken away from me is not very taken lightly.

well, for example, a friend. for a couple of months (this first sem actually) we made a good tandem and i really am myself when im with her. this second sem, though, she was transferred to another section. it happens, really, im used to it, but we were so close, more closer than my other friend who was my classmate since my college frreshman year. we lightly expressed our sorrow of being apart while in line to pay our tuition fees a while ago. this was the last day we're going together cause who knows when we'll hang out again, our schedules don't really meet for breaktimes. im really sad, now that i think about it. i guess i just have to be happy with whats happening and try to cope up, you know, i still have my classmates, and i'll just be contented to know that we build a pretty strong friendship and im confident that it'll stay that way.

anyway!! sembreak's not over yet! though im quite happy that my mom got over with heart-wrenching news of me failing one subject(and having to take it up again-poor me), im once again addicted to shoujo manga! yes, and its intensier (wtf?!) this time.

gawd host club is one parody/crazy/romantic manga!

just love these kind of guys! (like dommyouji,sans the bully image)

she's really a girl, but im too damn lazy to find her cutest pics! just love her and tamaki together!and well, hikaru/haruhi too.Ü

CUTE!CUTE!CUTE!

three weeks of heaven

2006-10-17T17:47:00.000+08:00

wow...gods karen again malfunctioned..lagi na lang...so i have missed posting some of the events in my life...well, for the short span i thought i had a band. hehe, plano na talaga ni louise ans umali sa muziklaban sa perpz, and kahit na negative ako sa simula pa lang, she proved to me na gagawa xa na paraan. so she made it happen, we practiced for a while, then nagkatamaran na dahil kulang kame, walang magaling mag drums, plus add the fact that i quit before they decided to finally disband(shet parang banda talaga, kaloka!)kasi, napagod na din ako sa lakad namen na walang kasiguraduhan..hay..

then the finals, it was okay, except, that i am constantly worrying on how to break it gently to my parents na back subject ako.isn't that sweet? my mom's boss just died this morning, i knew her since i was little...man...saglit lng tlga ang buhay, at ito ay hiram lng..

and lo and behold! i cut my tresses! darn, not THIS short, but i couldn't blame the 180bucks for a haircut salon...it was nice, but still! i still have this habit of pulling my hair, which i thought is still long! darn..i have to regrow this. but on the bright side, i get to use the small hairbun nets which everyone uses in rle! i feel like normal again! shucks...

again im in fanfiction paradise cause karen's working and internet's back! great, great vacation...

The Temple

2006-09-26T15:30:00.000+08:00

wow..now i know what i look and act like when i'm cranky...lack of sleep..but it was so worth it. tama talaga spantaha ko sa sarili ko..na kapag lalo ko q iniisip ang isang bagay na mangyari, kabaligtaran ang kalalbasan..just like that.

i've so made up my mind na hindi ako m22loy sa temple, i dressed up and took of myself kahit alam kong hindi nako aabot, hehe, it was alright, though, kahit mejo ngguilty talaga ako dahil si matsai un, one of my first friends s dccs. so un, nakapangbahay nako nang makausap ko si naths. nagbabalak na kasi ako nun magpuntang magisa o ayain si jec and kuya, then ang bruha sabi eh gusto ba naman pumunta (i already asked her the day before but she refused) so eto ako nabuhayan ng loob. i donned my party suit and dashed off my atc kc dun q xe mmeet. namili pa sha ng top na sus2otinm then we went to her house para dun mag ayos.

nag taxi kme papunta sa greenbelt, and the rest is history. it was a blast! saw all my batchmates na noon ko lng ulit nakita after almost two years na din ata (some of them) hindi na kasi ako nagpapakita sa mga school programs sa dccs maliban ng lng dun sa ms dccs where my sister participated and won...so un

the food was great and so was the boys! damn... and matsai was hot, PHAT to keep it short, hehe...it was fun, fun...hay....too bad bestfriend meggie wasn't there. mga pagkakataon nga naman...all we could do is defend her against PJ's nasty attitude. hehe.hope i could upload the pics.damn

there's always the downside....

2006-09-18T13:28:00.000+08:00

just been to la union for peanuts christening...it was fun..i love traveling and long rides...whatever...and no i didn't go to school. i knew there was a quiz in ethics and we had a play to perform in phc-and yet, i chose to stay at home. its really fucked up. i dnt know whay i cant get rid of this habit. later guilt will flood me when i realize what i've missed. and why did i stay? because i was sleepy...darn..

will post up pics from la union and well, download more fanfic stuff which i could drown myself in...

stressed?me?nah...

2006-09-11T15:06:00.000+08:00

wow..karen's (our pc ^.^) destined to forever malfunction..haha..tagal ko din naka pag-update..kung kelan may mga happenings saka kame ccraan ng pc..oh well.

last week was our first community, unang sabak sa mga depressed areas..well it was what i expected, dirty, remote, and totally poor. but they're good people, happy and somehow content despite lacking so many things. i felt really luck. yikes! anyway wasted naman kami. sheesh.

saturday we went to play badminton with elaine and mhae. and usapan sa imus sa rx, eh lekat yan pagdating namen dun sarado! so hala sige deretso kame sa dasma sa raquettaz(racquettaz?) malapit kina elaine. kamusta naman yun ang layo para sa isang oras ng pagbabadminton... sa sobrang pagod namen di namen naubos yung isang oras. punta kame kila elaine para maglunch saka ipagpaalam xa sa ermats nia para sa bday ni teng...hindi naman pinayagan and malandi, hehe...

so knya kanya kami na uwi at mgmeet na lang mmya sa pilar. pagdating ko sa bahay andun na yung mga kklase ni jec, and xempre lafang ako sa handa niya kahit kinabukasan pa yung bday niya nung sat xa naghanda...hindi pa nakakababa yung kinain ko deretso nako kila teng kasama si ning. it was alright, kung hindi lang talaga ako timee conscious dahil kelangan ko umuwi ng maaga dahil nga bday din ni jec. in the end ung dapat 9pm na uwi ko naging quarter to eleven dahil sa peer pressure (malamang) at umulan..kakahiya kay teng hinatid pa niya kme. at least it was good to know he appreciated our effort to come to his party.

next day rents with barney went to sm to buy our bnew television set! (woohoo!) sumunod kme nila maco and jec and watched monster house (cute!) libre ni ate may..bought some things then deretso sa church..

in short...puyat ako ngayon!haha! dapat magmmeet pa sa times na 6pm dahil ppmigay ni mats yung invitation sa debut niya, si meggie best na lang pinakuha ko hehe...hay...bukas community hanggang gabi n naman ako, at bukas din ang deliver ng tv! ewan,...

excited nako sa binyag ni peanut...

A Splash of Brandy and Chlorine

2006-08-20T12:21:00.000+08:00

Brandy:

Two bottles of long-neck empi and Pamihiin got three of us six drinkers down. and it included the owner of the house we were in.i was a bit tipsy myself but when ning threw all the pulutan she ate on her feet, i thought, what the hell, i enough, i've had enough five shots and the room's spinning before me so i quit. migz and jinky, brave enough to start a one-on-one, didn't last lost when jinky first bee-lined to the bathroom to spew. migz was the noisest, caouldn't believed he was drunk, but went out of the house and vomited all over jinky's front gate where her old neighbor saw and got pissed. i watched Pamihiin but i didn't understood a thing no matter how i tried to focus and forget my nausea.

me, and two of my other girl classmates (who didn't even drink) cleaned up all the mess. ning was totally wasted, talking nonsense and all. i could understand her eagerness to drink cause she had problems, but she should've been more responsible to herself. the boys went early, cause they had to bring migz home and then the four us left, leaving ning with wakz to help ning sober up a little before they left.

Chlorine:

next morning was...okay, i guess. we were just banned from jinky's house and the impending doom of her parents finding out still haunts me...a little...i am yet to find out what happened.

i forgot about it fortunately, cause i went swimming with my highschool bestfriends. it was fun but a little disappointing cause nathz and me were expecting meg would treat us, i mean we went out for her birthday right?no matter how belated it was, but it was cool, good thing i brought extra cash with me. i enjoyed our bonding moments, i learned how to make sisid! (taena corny) and i felt proud cause after three instructirs, saken natuto mag-float si nathz. hmn..meg's bf was there, he was cool, great swimmer but a little quiet?he's okay for meg.

and now....im bored.

god help me im getting sore eyes!

2006-08-14T18:40:00.000+08:00

gawd. you have no idea how i feel right now. i didn't she was like this. i couldn't stand to look at her actions. kanina wala na naman kameng nagawa. nakipaghuntahan lng kme, kung ini uwi ko n lng yung mahigit na apat na oras na inilagi ko dun at bumawi ng tulog. we watched sukob (again, after me and ning watched it last friday), and well, spent the time telling ghost stories to each other, scaring each other's brains out, and god, smakit ang mata ko sa ginagawa niya. he had a gf, for christ's sake!kung sana single ung guy i wouldn've teased her mercilessly, but NO! i couldn't stand the sight of her...overweight self flirt away with him. grabe talaga, i should applaud her for her efforts and cunning ability.people are starting to notice, and believe me it's not a good sight AT.ALL.

i couldn't very well tell her this, dahil alam kong alam niya, i wouldn't bother wasting my breath telling someone who knew what she was doing, and she wouldn't listen, anyway. this is utter crap. im startig to see the real her.

recollection with no memories to cherish

2006-08-10T20:38:00.000+08:00

damn what a lousy title..cause that's exactly what i feel this week-lousy.

had our reco yesterday. i wouldn't bore myself or anyone with the details, sa akin na lang cguro yun, wala namang makaintindi at kahit ilagay ko yun dito i wouldn't dwell on it.damn

the thing i go from that is a splitting headache and fever spike.

rush, rush

2006-08-06T19:21:00.000+08:00

im always frustrated on how i always seem to be rushing in updating my blog entries..pano i haven't got time and everytime i post parang ang dami kong gustong ilagay and i just CAN'T slow down.....tagal ko na din hindi nkkpag net...

tomorrow's barney's birhtday, ought to greet later at midnight just for kicks. had a little gathering with his friends kanina and i talked to bestfriend meggie sa sun. missed that girl, and nathz too. sana matuloy yung blowout niya samen.

nung friday was a very...loaded day.bukasan ng box! damn, but im jealous of barney's 30g ipod video..got a few stuffs from states myself.and xempre kasi rle, at hindi ako pumasok ng fcl kasi nagpunta kme ng town, me jec and maco (to the last minute sumama si maco dahil nagkasabay kame pauwi from school for the first time). and we had a little problem in regards sa incoming recollection. me and ning really, REALLY don't want to go. kahit nung una pa lng. napagusapan na namen ung pan kickback ng 1thou, and nung friday nga, aun na dala na namen yung money pero sbrang ngddoubt paren kame.problem is how we will break it to jinky. nung bnanggit pa lng n may reco super excited na xa, halatang gustung gusto AT gusto niyang makabonding yung limang lalake sa room namen. ang amin naman ni Ning, recos and retreats are so highschool! and the fact hindi kame ganun ka-close sa iba, at take note diba dapat gnagawa yung usually at the end of the school year kung saan super bonded na ang class. eh halos kalahati p yung hindi a-attend, so where the fun in that? yung ,ga taong gustung gusto ko talagang sumama hindi sasama, like bam and virus. si ning naman sbrang nanghihinayang sa pera, at tsaka posistive talaga kme na wala kmeng m222nan dun, kkain lng kme. so many cons...pati si dai2 hiningan na namen ng advice.

so sinabi ko na, aba ang sagot ba naman eh hindi na din daw xa sasama, with matching pangongonsensya. eh kami naman ang na guilty. hindi ba niya kayang umattend nang hindi kame kasama? why, i made it to eula's debut without her! and mas flexible xa kesa saken and mas friendly. so lala kmeng nagkagulo ni ning. kung hindi nga kame sasama edi masama naman ang loob ni jinky, so we decided to go n lang, sabi ni daidai kung hindi ba nako2nsensya si jinky, knowing na sasama kami out of our will...

ewan, ewan talaga in the end sha paring ang nasunod.

the funny thing though, nagpplano kme ni ning kung anung ggwin namen if ever hindi kame sumama st kkick-back-in ung money. we opted to spend the night in a motel! eurotel, to be exact!you cant know how hard we laughed at that. wala lang.

nothing's perfect

2006-08-01T22:57:00.000+08:00

well, you can't really ask for something perfect. while this country suffers major heat during summer, now we're flooded.and i'm literally chilling to the bones. kanina pa sa school. well that's stupid me, forgetting my jacket and umbrella.

yesterday was really hell for me. inabutan ako ng ulan pagsakay ko pa lang ng trike, and then the gods must've play some nasty joke on me dahil na traffic pa dun along sa times, pano, baha simula ata sa lucky store hanggang sa entrance gates sa perpetual. edi si ako no choice kasi tutal madami din kame dun na nakapila, so hala suong kame sa baha at pinaukan na ng tubig yung shoes ko, good thind i ddnt wore socks. so deretso ako sa cr and pinatuyo ko yung shoes gamit yung hand drier. so i was 30 minutes lates for ethis but thank the fates pagdating ko lumabas pala si mam.so there.

i ranked 4th place in class sa RLE and PHC, pinagsama na kasi yung grades dun. it's really a nice feeling after all lalo na pag hindi mo expected. i got teased and congratulated for that.

now today...except that i was chattering my teeth sa lamig buong araw, i had my period. peachy-keen-tastic. in the middle of RLE discussion inatake na ako ng dysmenorrhea, i was happily sulking at the corner nang bigla akong tinawag ni mam para magrecite. eh ano ba malay ko sa dnidiscuss niya, my tummy's screaming for attention so hati and focus ko. edi hindi ko xa sinagot. then full force ang atake niya sa fcl. which was funny dahil on and off ang sakit. pano, kulitan tsaka nagpapatawa si sir nung class na.

there's still one thing bothers me still. it's my...i dnt know, aloofness?its just that im the kind of person who won't approach you first. well scratch that-i want to observe what kind of person i WANT to approach first. so what's the fcuking connection? im still not comfortable with the other people in my class, and why does that bother me? cause my circle of friends are starting to warm to them and i just-i cant get along, that's what.

i wont rant on anymore, i'll just try to think what to do.

woohoo

2006-07-25T10:53:00.000+08:00

last uhm...saturday, i went to a classmate's debut. overnight to mga tol, so that's the first time i was legally permitted! sheeett...sadly, apat lng kme sa class ang nakapunta, excluding the debutante and her two bestfriends. di kasi nakasama si jinky...it was okay, the journey to laguna was fun, bonging moment with the tres maria, ate mitch, ate elsa and virus. nakatuwa dahil marami akong nalaman...

then ang ganda sa place nila eula, matao pero ganun kagulo...they live in paete so wood carving ang specialty nila. cute ng bahay nila eula...basta kalog moments with virus, and then the party! eula's friends were cool, dami may face value,a nd ang gagaling sumayaw!sobra. gulat nga ako dahi kasama ako sa 18 revelations nyeta inaasar asar ko sila dai na sa speeches nila tas ako pala tinawag din! alangya...neweiz may gay pageant dun and nanood kme patapos na din naman...

so nung tulugan eting si virus eh trip makipag-wrestling kaya hindi din kame nakatulog agad. nagkwento si ate elsa and ate mitch and it was fun..

kinabukasan apat na lng kme lumuwas ulit...so...alang pics eh nakila eula...hehe..so un.

running in circles

2006-07-17T12:17:00.000+08:00

here i am, in front of the computer screen, typing this sinful entry while downloading my songs in my fave internet shop.

yesterday we watched pirates of the carribean: dead man's chest with maco, jec and mylene. it was fun, the movie's worth it but i have to patiently wait in my seat for the third movie. *sigh*

okay, the sin is-was, i didn't go to school. i just attended mass last night and here i am, doing this addictive habit of mine. i mean, one absence is enough, right? im crossing my finger for karma to evade me, i promise never to do this again, unkess i have a perfectlt good reason to do so.

as the title says it all, im running in circles. habits die hard. im back to square one.

sugod mga kapatid!(yeah right)

2006-07-15T22:14:00.000+08:00

yeah, this day sucks.

went to the mall to pay my dermatologist a visit cause im running out of potions, i went there alone cause my sister's already there and i have to meet her there but im a sun user, therefore, i'm on UNLIMITED and i couldnt find any store that provides express load. so i had to text up everyone in my phonebook and asked for extra credits to text my sister. eventually after an hour or so,she came. dealt with my doctor and she drained all the money i had-i thousand-freaking-bucks, just so my face would be rid of the stupid zits(argh!)

and then suddenly an idea popped into our minds that we watch sandwich just outside the mall, at the parking lot. so my sis went back home to get the cd's (cause we wouldn't be allowed inside the tent if dnt have those, lest we buy a new cd just to get in). but alas, it was all down to traffic jam's fault and we arrived there late. we couldn't get, not until after the showm, and we had to put up with boisterous,rubbish lot of trying hard rockers ina mosh pit. god, i never got THAT hurt in a concert before, and that's just a minor show, nothing compared to the others i've been to like in san beda...i got hit and pushed but then i couldn't snap at them cause hey, its a concert and mosh pit and slamming is only natural. so we waited after four and five songs i guess(we were late), and we weaited again until we were allowed to get in.

oh, and we met a girl named Maya, taking up mma in csb and an opm bands enthusiast, and she was asking if we could pretend she was with us so she could get in. unfortunatley she didn't make it, but i wish it was cool with her.she just rushed from school to there so...there?lol.

the guys were cool (sandwich) if we weren't the last to pile up for autograph signing. that's what i hate about it.grrr...and anyway, not a real big fan of sandwich. i kept on thinking that i should've went to urbandub's show yesterday, at least my sis and her friend got inside. how lucky...
welp, i guess that's it.hmn..

0 R i G i N A L i T Y
is so hot right now =]
.. too bad you don`t have it

yeargh...

2006-07-14T20:13:00.000+08:00

wth?? tagal kong hindi nakapagpost dito...the internet's gone loco, at suspended ang class, so no swimming for sick me...

tambay kila jinky dahil alang class sa algeb..good thing dahil 2mambay din sila shara and melai. mised those two...

jinky didn't attend fcl today, so its just me bam and louise hanging out with my mp3, and with some friends too...ewan...okay naman 2nga araw n to...bonding with friends, and i still feel awfully stupid...just...argh!!!! im being paranoid i guess...

it's raining men

2006-07-08T14:32:00.000+08:00

again its me and my lame attempt at better entry titles. but as my title says it is indeed raining, but not men. yep, sticky, blazing scorching heat is gone and now my environment is near flooding. what the hell...

im kinda pissed off right now. there's something bugging me and i can't breathe until i've sorted this out. i've just received my certificate of grades from last year and we need to pass that for evaluation, wether we're qualified to enter our third year. yes i've looked into my grades, it was all okay, except for my algebra and nstp.

the thing is, i've got 5.00 in both courses. isn't that grand? now that's what making me apoplectic right now. if i got the lowest grade, i must be dropped. if im dropped then that means i haven't been attending those classes and haven't been taking exams. but i fucking did! so we went to my prof in math and o and behold! she's not working in the university anymore. some of the math professors were kind enough to help and told me to come and talk to their head of department next monday...and how can i sort it out and find out if i really had a grade of at least 3.00 i have no idea...

we were on our way home yesterday when some two random guys (obviously not from school) asked me of course. they said that we have cool uniforms (i was wearin my RLE uniform). well, what the hell, we should always be wearing our RLE unifroms instead of those maid-looking scraps of clothing..

i really dnt know how to sort this problem...

happy birthday ningning!

2006-07-06T14:30:00.001+08:00

yeah, yesterday's louise's bday...dapat anim kme pupunta, but it turned out that jinky, bambam and i made it to their house..it was fun, chillax sa terrace nila overlookinhg a basketball court where sweaty but hot (some)guys were showing off (hehe). the foods' great, and their house was nice, feel namen nasa museum kame sa dami ng antique things..

anyway here are some of the pics on my phone...

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2006-07-03T15:34:00.000+08:00

well, what the hell...new layout...i'm quite saitsfied with this one, it's simple and yet not that boring...

maaga uwian namen ngayon..mondays and thursdays are my favorite days...4 days lang ang pasok ko sa isang linggo(badtrip!) and 7-7 kme every tuesdays and fridays...i had to suffer a tummy ache all day but applaud me people! dahil hindi ako umuwi! i had good friends who had to knock some sense into me para mag-stay. importante nga naman ang RLE lecture at hindi dapat inaabsenan(that's a word! ;p)

tomorrow demo na namen, i hope to whoever or whatever with high powers that we could make it. well, "powerhouse" nga naman daw kame, according to our group CI, but still...

obvious bang wala na akong masabi dito? so far im happy with the way life's treating me right now...

and sometimes its easier to say
you dont care instead of tryingto explain
every single reason why you do.

under the pool

2006-06-30T20:17:00.000+08:00

so our first swimming lesson went and gone by (pasensya na kung lami-mali mga pnagssabi ko dito kkgaling ko sa 12-hour classday (ewan!)) and it went..okay...kakapagod lng talaga after swimming dahil gugutumin ka,and hassle sa shower rooms..mejo masakit mga muscles ko dahil di din biro yung pnaggawa namen never pa naman akong nag swimming lessons noh, but it was very fun, at talagang natuto ako, and im very interested for more. (naks)

as usual friday, masaya dahil alang pasok bukas, but feeling dead tired...i'm really starting to realize the hard part in my course. it was fun, alright, we get to learn to wash other people's genitals, but...whatever, natatakot akong isipin yung mga iba pang skills na ggawin, im scared but at the same time thrilled, magfform kami ng 3-person group sa group namen para sa demo namen next week. so it's gonna me, louise and chay. nung nagppractice nga kme nag-comment samen yung 2 CI namen, sabi naggrupo-grupo daw kme, yung 'powerhouse', kulang daw yung isa p namen classmate. xempre of course haba na naman ng relaxed hairs namen (charooott) dhil kme ang considered na isa sa mga maggaling sa group.

newei, louise's bday is coming soon, we're still persuading bambam to come with us, and well...i think that's all.

well one more thing, nahahawa ako kay tiffany tuwing katabi ko xa, napa2tingin tuloy ako kay "Mr.Bean" everytime na lilingon siya. kainis, tas nagkkahulihan p kme ng tingin minsan. grr.